Ummm... growing up and sleeping
AHHHHHH!!!!!! I can't stand it when you like a guy yet you're too shy to tell him... that's the way it is for me right now. See, I like this guy and have for a while. But, I'm stupid and incredibly shy around guys (only if I like them)and it bothers me... why can't I just open up a little? Too scared of rejection I guess. He talked to me tonight too... grrrrrr... everything has to be so difficult. Oh well... I wont worry about it. If it's God's will then everything will work out in his timing... so I'm not going to fret too much on it.
Anyways... today went ok... I chatted online with some peeps... it was fun. Like three of the guys I met online I found out goes to my school... or the school I GRADUATED from... YAY! One of the guys I didn't know untl he told me his name and I realized I knew him from school... hehehehe... amazing how that works, right?
So yea... my life is like a blur sometimes... everything happens so fast. It just whizzes right by me and I'm like, "Woah, what just happened?" I bring that up because the more I look around me and see that I'm no longer in school and almost 18 years old the more I wanna freak out. It's a little soon... yea, I'm happy to be done with it all but scared of what happens next. I hope I'm not the only one freaking out right now because then I'd feel a little on the DUMB side. I have to sit down now and figure out what to do about college, work, future plans, etc. I have to figure out how I'm going to pay for everything... I'm seriously not that great with money... I take after my MOM, hehehehe... I need to learn how to manage money a little better. I hate that I cant be a kid anymore... it really sucks. When you're younger you can't wait to grow up but then you do and you want to go back to being a kid again.
Anyways... I'm tired... busy day... ready for some shuteye. *yawns*.... ok... well, I'll write more later when I feel like it. Buh Bye!
Anyways... today went ok... I chatted online with some peeps... it was fun. Like three of the guys I met online I found out goes to my school... or the school I GRADUATED from... YAY! One of the guys I didn't know untl he told me his name and I realized I knew him from school... hehehehe... amazing how that works, right?
So yea... my life is like a blur sometimes... everything happens so fast. It just whizzes right by me and I'm like, "Woah, what just happened?" I bring that up because the more I look around me and see that I'm no longer in school and almost 18 years old the more I wanna freak out. It's a little soon... yea, I'm happy to be done with it all but scared of what happens next. I hope I'm not the only one freaking out right now because then I'd feel a little on the DUMB side. I have to sit down now and figure out what to do about college, work, future plans, etc. I have to figure out how I'm going to pay for everything... I'm seriously not that great with money... I take after my MOM, hehehehe... I need to learn how to manage money a little better. I hate that I cant be a kid anymore... it really sucks. When you're younger you can't wait to grow up but then you do and you want to go back to being a kid again.
Anyways... I'm tired... busy day... ready for some shuteye. *yawns*.... ok... well, I'll write more later when I feel like it. Buh Bye!