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So last weekend Matthew came with me to visit my family which was wonderful. I couldnt have asked for anything better. It made me really happy to have someone who wants to partake in my life with me. It makes me feel whole. Although I do think he was probably quite bored because it rained and there was nothing to do. We went out for lunch and my brother paid for us which was really really nice of him then we went out to dinner and got Thai food. My mom took us out, it was amazing. I miss my family a lot. I always think of them. Sometimes I even cry because I miss them so much and it kinda hurts to have to grow up and grow away from them. But I really think I found myself a nice life here in West Chester and its hard for me to want to give that up now. Now that Im finally content with my living conditions for once because I have been through a lot. I have moved from place to place without any rest. I moved way too many times. Too many things went on in the past year. Im glad this is my life now. I have a good life here and I go to an awesome school. I love the area and I love the people I have met. Also, Im glad I met someone who has my heart and who makes me happy with each passing moment. I never could have asked for anything better than this.

Anyway this week was good, I got a job at H&M making 8 bucks an hour which is great and it was my last week of classes.

I cut my bangs, they look shitty. I also bleached my hair and I think I look ugly. My hair looks stupid, I wish it would grow in. I look so stupid and gross, I hate it. Maybe when I dye it tomorrow it will look better, I hope. I should have never cut my bangs, but Im an idiot and of course when I said I wasnt going to cut my hair anymore, I go and do it anyway like the stupid ass I am. I hate myself sometimes. Its great.