Almost Hallowe'en, again!
I have to say, I really do love this time of year, although it's not as fulfilling to me as spring. But it's fun, and I do love those days where I actually need to pull out one of my sweaters whenever I go out of the house. I love wearing jeans and my cowboy boots. And I love getting the kids ready for Trick-or-Treating. This year, Daniel's going to be a ghost and Jessica wants to be a princess. Jacob may also be a ghost if I have enough white sheet; otherwise he's agreed to be a dragon. And I will probably pull out my black velvet cat ears and tail.
This year, it feels especially important to me to make sure we get to go out and have fun for Hallowe'en. There's something going on downtown on Friday afternoon; we're really wanting to take the kids--because on Saturday, Steve deploys. This whole thing has been a major roller-coaster ride, because there's been a lot of movement of the dates, and then some health issues (we thought he might need knee surgery) and now it's just right here on top of us, and I'm stressed. Of course, I'm always stressed, anymore. I'm hoping it'll all straighten itself out here soon, though. There's some stress I can't do anything about--deployment--but hopefully, I can take this opportunity to get the house and bills under control and start making time for my hobbies. I have so many projects I want to finish but that I've had to lay aside indefinitely due to kids/moves/general craziness. And I want to really think hard about where I want to direct my life. I can look into options and maybe figure something out that works for all of us. I'm just really tired of feeling like I can never take time to myself because of all the dishes and laundry and vacuuming and running kids here and there. Now it's my turn; I've been following Steve's career and the kids' needs for so long that it's time for me to put myself first to whatever extent I can. The problem, I know, is that I say this, but then I find that I backslide and end up feeling frustrated again. *sigh*
Anyway, here's hoping things get better this time around!
This year, it feels especially important to me to make sure we get to go out and have fun for Hallowe'en. There's something going on downtown on Friday afternoon; we're really wanting to take the kids--because on Saturday, Steve deploys. This whole thing has been a major roller-coaster ride, because there's been a lot of movement of the dates, and then some health issues (we thought he might need knee surgery) and now it's just right here on top of us, and I'm stressed. Of course, I'm always stressed, anymore. I'm hoping it'll all straighten itself out here soon, though. There's some stress I can't do anything about--deployment--but hopefully, I can take this opportunity to get the house and bills under control and start making time for my hobbies. I have so many projects I want to finish but that I've had to lay aside indefinitely due to kids/moves/general craziness. And I want to really think hard about where I want to direct my life. I can look into options and maybe figure something out that works for all of us. I'm just really tired of feeling like I can never take time to myself because of all the dishes and laundry and vacuuming and running kids here and there. Now it's my turn; I've been following Steve's career and the kids' needs for so long that it's time for me to put myself first to whatever extent I can. The problem, I know, is that I say this, but then I find that I backslide and end up feeling frustrated again. *sigh*
Anyway, here's hoping things get better this time around!