The enemy
Along with the mastitis I got last year, the worst thing I ever went through is almost 2 months of insomnia.
For the first time in at least 3 weeks, last night, I slept naturally. I didn't sleep very long (6 hours) or very deeply I suspect, but still I slept without zopiclone.
Lack of sleep on a long-term basis is horrible. One sleepless night once in a while never killed anyone... but 4 or 5 in a row? And the only relief you have is cause by a hypnotic medicine, that works one out of two times? You barely know you are existing anymore. And in that state of mind I had to write 2 papers and go to one exam. I'm sure I screwed them all, but what else could I do? I could not sleep, and zopiclone just made me feel worse in the morning. I did not want to become dependent on it. I was expecting relief to come Monday with my last paper in and my last exam done, but no relief Monday night either. But last night... it finally came.
I still feel rather tired this morning, since my sleep wasn't particularly restful. But still I am happy I can now put the zopiclone on my shelf and not bring it to Cuba. I was scared I'd have to do that.
In any case, I am leaving tomorrow morning, and will be back on the 23rd. I promise to bring back more pictures than last year, and more that involve me and L. together. They will be up on Facebook.
For the first time in at least 3 weeks, last night, I slept naturally. I didn't sleep very long (6 hours) or very deeply I suspect, but still I slept without zopiclone.
Lack of sleep on a long-term basis is horrible. One sleepless night once in a while never killed anyone... but 4 or 5 in a row? And the only relief you have is cause by a hypnotic medicine, that works one out of two times? You barely know you are existing anymore. And in that state of mind I had to write 2 papers and go to one exam. I'm sure I screwed them all, but what else could I do? I could not sleep, and zopiclone just made me feel worse in the morning. I did not want to become dependent on it. I was expecting relief to come Monday with my last paper in and my last exam done, but no relief Monday night either. But last night... it finally came.
I still feel rather tired this morning, since my sleep wasn't particularly restful. But still I am happy I can now put the zopiclone on my shelf and not bring it to Cuba. I was scared I'd have to do that.
In any case, I am leaving tomorrow morning, and will be back on the 23rd. I promise to bring back more pictures than last year, and more that involve me and L. together. They will be up on Facebook.