I'm Two Quarters and a Heart Dowm
Okay, well, it's been quite a long time since I have been here. Ever since the whole myspace trend started I haven't really been on this site.
So, maybe people have forgotten about my little world here. Maybe...
Well, life continues on as it always has, confusing me more and more as it goes. *sigh* I am honestly so lost. I don't even think it's confusion anymore. It's just me being more lost then I have ever been before....
I had so much fun last night. It was cool and it was just plain good old fun. I wish Sean could be like that more often. He's a really great guy when he wants to be. And he cares a lot. It's just when he decides to be a jerk or when he tells you that you are the one messing up and making things hard on him... That's when he bothers me.
Last night though was really cool. I wish I could hang out with people like that all the time. It would be nice. But I keep seeming to screw things up. Maybe if I just bossed everyone they would like me more. I mean I could sit there and tell them my opinion and that it's right.... I mean it works for other people....
*sigh*
I guess I will never be one of those people. It's just not who I am. I just drive people away it seems. Even the ones who apparently care for me so much. I just don't know what to do honestly. And on top of that I don't want to worry about it. I just wish there was someone out there who understood me and whom I could understand. Too bad life's not like that. I mean life's not a faerie tale. If only it were.
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Anyways, I watched one of my favorite movies tonight and I didn't cry! I didn't even really tear up which is good. It's not the greatest movie to cry over and most people will think it sad that I would even think about tearing up over that paticular movie, but B did too when I showed it to her so it's okay. I am not the only one who has cried during tht movie. Ha!
Well, anywas, the nostaga of tonight is really starting to get to me so I think I will leave for now.
Later Days
So, maybe people have forgotten about my little world here. Maybe...
Well, life continues on as it always has, confusing me more and more as it goes. *sigh* I am honestly so lost. I don't even think it's confusion anymore. It's just me being more lost then I have ever been before....
I had so much fun last night. It was cool and it was just plain good old fun. I wish Sean could be like that more often. He's a really great guy when he wants to be. And he cares a lot. It's just when he decides to be a jerk or when he tells you that you are the one messing up and making things hard on him... That's when he bothers me.
Last night though was really cool. I wish I could hang out with people like that all the time. It would be nice. But I keep seeming to screw things up. Maybe if I just bossed everyone they would like me more. I mean I could sit there and tell them my opinion and that it's right.... I mean it works for other people....
*sigh*
I guess I will never be one of those people. It's just not who I am. I just drive people away it seems. Even the ones who apparently care for me so much. I just don't know what to do honestly. And on top of that I don't want to worry about it. I just wish there was someone out there who understood me and whom I could understand. Too bad life's not like that. I mean life's not a faerie tale. If only it were.
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Anyways, I watched one of my favorite movies tonight and I didn't cry! I didn't even really tear up which is good. It's not the greatest movie to cry over and most people will think it sad that I would even think about tearing up over that paticular movie, but B did too when I showed it to her so it's okay. I am not the only one who has cried during tht movie. Ha!
Well, anywas, the nostaga of tonight is really starting to get to me so I think I will leave for now.
Later Days