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So now I am a "Youth Nazi." Whatever. I could honestly care less at this point. Though I admit it hurt a lot. Especially when someone is your good friend.
Maybe that's why I have a hard time being myself a lot of the time. It's like I am so afraid to show who I am because people will just tear it down. I mean I hear the way people talk about other people and the things they will totally diss...when does anyone want to stand up and say "Well, I like that band just like they do." ? I mean think about it. Who wants to be part of the outcast crowd, the unpopular ones?
"I lock myself inside these walls, 'cause out there I'm always wrong."
That's the way I feel sometimes. And at the oddest of times around people that I should feel that way... But I don't want to whine and that is not actually why I was going to write this entry.
The real reason was to say that I had a good time last night, and, yes, that surprised me. I thought it was going to be a bunch of teenage girls doing what teen girls do. And, honestly, it was, but I didn't notice a whole lot and it didn't bother me. I mostly hung out with the "older ones" a.k.a. The Chaperons. It was really awesome.
A few of them were my co workers and it was nice getting to know them outside of work. :) I mean we talked about stuff that I never would have expected to come out of their mouths. I mean we talked about what's hot on a guy, what guys are hot and even sex. The last thing that I honestly thought would come up.
But like they say. What happens at Ladies Night stays at Ladies Night.
It was just lots of fun and I think what made it fun was the fact that I didn't expect it. I mean I didn't really know a lot of the girls there and I thought I was just going to have a miserable time and it was the complete opposite. :)
What I also thought was crazy was how well I got along with some of the older people. It just felt right and easy. It wasn't petty like it can be with people my age, and it wasn't gossip either. It was really and it was awesome. I told Tammie that I felt old when we were there because I was hanging out with them and she was like "You are old! Just kidding. You just have an old soul." It was nice. :)
But anyway that's what I wanted to say. There were a few other things that I needed to put down here, but i can wait for the next entry.
Later Days
P.S.
Last night I gave my number to a random woman who was going to give it to her son! I can't believe I did that but oh well. We'll see what happens...
P.P.S.
And about last night...it was weird a bit because people were actually interested in me. Also the fact that Yinka got me to do a small bit of acappella into the mic might have helped...OMG! It felt so awesome to be singing through a mic again...! Even if it was just playing around. I miss it so much that I cannot even begin to explain...
Okay I am honestly done now! Goodnight!
Maybe that's why I have a hard time being myself a lot of the time. It's like I am so afraid to show who I am because people will just tear it down. I mean I hear the way people talk about other people and the things they will totally diss...when does anyone want to stand up and say "Well, I like that band just like they do." ? I mean think about it. Who wants to be part of the outcast crowd, the unpopular ones?
"I lock myself inside these walls, 'cause out there I'm always wrong."
That's the way I feel sometimes. And at the oddest of times around people that I should feel that way... But I don't want to whine and that is not actually why I was going to write this entry.
The real reason was to say that I had a good time last night, and, yes, that surprised me. I thought it was going to be a bunch of teenage girls doing what teen girls do. And, honestly, it was, but I didn't notice a whole lot and it didn't bother me. I mostly hung out with the "older ones" a.k.a. The Chaperons. It was really awesome.
A few of them were my co workers and it was nice getting to know them outside of work. :) I mean we talked about stuff that I never would have expected to come out of their mouths. I mean we talked about what's hot on a guy, what guys are hot and even sex. The last thing that I honestly thought would come up.
But like they say. What happens at Ladies Night stays at Ladies Night.
It was just lots of fun and I think what made it fun was the fact that I didn't expect it. I mean I didn't really know a lot of the girls there and I thought I was just going to have a miserable time and it was the complete opposite. :)
What I also thought was crazy was how well I got along with some of the older people. It just felt right and easy. It wasn't petty like it can be with people my age, and it wasn't gossip either. It was really and it was awesome. I told Tammie that I felt old when we were there because I was hanging out with them and she was like "You are old! Just kidding. You just have an old soul." It was nice. :)
But anyway that's what I wanted to say. There were a few other things that I needed to put down here, but i can wait for the next entry.
Later Days
P.S.
Last night I gave my number to a random woman who was going to give it to her son! I can't believe I did that but oh well. We'll see what happens...
P.P.S.
And about last night...it was weird a bit because people were actually interested in me. Also the fact that Yinka got me to do a small bit of acappella into the mic might have helped...OMG! It felt so awesome to be singing through a mic again...! Even if it was just playing around. I miss it so much that I cannot even begin to explain...
Okay I am honestly done now! Goodnight!