Need Change.....?
Hell yeah I need change....the physical, mental, spiritual and metaphorical....!!!
*sigh*
Here it is...almost two thirty in the morning and what am I doing??? Where do I find myself?
Well, first off I find myself in bed. Second, I find myself "here" on my lj. Why? Now that's a good question...and honestly I don't have the foggiest idea. I should be asleep though I know that. But am I? No, of course not.
I just got through playing my newly acquired playstation 2. (Kingdom Hearts being the game if you must know.) But yeah anywho, I took a shower earlier hoping that would make me sleepy and relax me. Well, it did. I mean I feel really nice right now and I do feel kinda sleey...I just don't really want to go to sleep....
I guess it might be because I just have too much that I really want to write down...I just have too much up in my mind that is bouncing around and all...oh god, I sound like a character from one of my books..I need to stop that know...
*sigh*
I don't even feel like typing all that much...I kinda want to talk to someone but no one is online...I want to cuddle...but God knows that ain't going to be happening for a very long time.
(insert deep depressing sigh here...)
I mean I don't care what people say. I am really not going to meet anyone soon and this year is not looking good so far... Yes, I know it is wrong to condemn a year after less then one month but whatever. I really don't give a flying rat... And then considering my luck?
Let's see...I have already had the wannabe, the complete and total jerk, the nice geeky boy next door, and the sweet down to earth guy turned money hungry jerk...what am I missing? How could this get any better? (said with extreme sarcasm mind) then again the nice geeky boy next door wasn't all bad...the rest...in the long run...were.
Ahem. Moving on... I need to change my journal...it's beginning to look old and the decoration on the walls is beginning to piss me off. I feel cramped. I need a change. Maybe this week before school starts I will do something about this place. Maybe try and put some more life into it.... I just don't really know what I want though...I mean i don't know what is me...?
I guess the same goes for my new cell phone and ringtone. I haven't found one yet that really fits...And then of course there is the job...I need to look for a new one of those...the one I have is going completely to hell and that makes me sad for two reasons...One, the kids, and two, Missy. I didn't think I would ever like someone who worked there, but I love Missy. She is freakin' awesome. I will miss her if and when I leave.
I say if because I don't know if I will leave and unlike some stupid people out there I don't just say screw this and screw that and then come crawling back...
*rolls eyes*
Ack! Geez, someone gag. I am beginning to make myself depressed, which is really sad if you come to think about it...
But back to the changing thing...For one I need to watch myself when I get in these moods because if not I will do something drastic... i.e. dying my hair pink in 03, chopping 7 inches of in July 04.... That type of thing.
Are we noticing a trend here? I seem to attack my hair when I am upset...Poor hair. I am sorry. I really don't mean to take it out on my hair...I guess it just sorta happens... I think the only thing stopping me right no from doing something drastic is lack of funds...
I have a sucky job now where I am only getting two hours a day which suck such bad balls that it ain't even funny... i.e. the reason why I need a new job...
Hmmm....It's rather cold in here....I think I might need to put some clothes on after all...that sucks because I was so comfortable too...
*sigh*
No, I am not in the nude...I am wearing a robe...and panties of course. They are the jungle stripped ones. :) Anywho, I best go look for pjs before I catch pneumonia. Lord knows we can't have that happen. Then I might not be able to work for the two measly hours that they are giving me.... Okay I swear I am done grumbling now.
Goodnight and Later Days
*sigh*
Here it is...almost two thirty in the morning and what am I doing??? Where do I find myself?
Well, first off I find myself in bed. Second, I find myself "here" on my lj. Why? Now that's a good question...and honestly I don't have the foggiest idea. I should be asleep though I know that. But am I? No, of course not.
I just got through playing my newly acquired playstation 2. (Kingdom Hearts being the game if you must know.) But yeah anywho, I took a shower earlier hoping that would make me sleepy and relax me. Well, it did. I mean I feel really nice right now and I do feel kinda sleey...I just don't really want to go to sleep....
I guess it might be because I just have too much that I really want to write down...I just have too much up in my mind that is bouncing around and all...oh god, I sound like a character from one of my books..I need to stop that know...
*sigh*
I don't even feel like typing all that much...I kinda want to talk to someone but no one is online...I want to cuddle...but God knows that ain't going to be happening for a very long time.
(insert deep depressing sigh here...)
I mean I don't care what people say. I am really not going to meet anyone soon and this year is not looking good so far... Yes, I know it is wrong to condemn a year after less then one month but whatever. I really don't give a flying rat... And then considering my luck?
Let's see...I have already had the wannabe, the complete and total jerk, the nice geeky boy next door, and the sweet down to earth guy turned money hungry jerk...what am I missing? How could this get any better? (said with extreme sarcasm mind) then again the nice geeky boy next door wasn't all bad...the rest...in the long run...were.
Ahem. Moving on... I need to change my journal...it's beginning to look old and the decoration on the walls is beginning to piss me off. I feel cramped. I need a change. Maybe this week before school starts I will do something about this place. Maybe try and put some more life into it.... I just don't really know what I want though...I mean i don't know what is me...?
I guess the same goes for my new cell phone and ringtone. I haven't found one yet that really fits...And then of course there is the job...I need to look for a new one of those...the one I have is going completely to hell and that makes me sad for two reasons...One, the kids, and two, Missy. I didn't think I would ever like someone who worked there, but I love Missy. She is freakin' awesome. I will miss her if and when I leave.
I say if because I don't know if I will leave and unlike some stupid people out there I don't just say screw this and screw that and then come crawling back...
*rolls eyes*
Ack! Geez, someone gag. I am beginning to make myself depressed, which is really sad if you come to think about it...
But back to the changing thing...For one I need to watch myself when I get in these moods because if not I will do something drastic... i.e. dying my hair pink in 03, chopping 7 inches of in July 04.... That type of thing.
Are we noticing a trend here? I seem to attack my hair when I am upset...Poor hair. I am sorry. I really don't mean to take it out on my hair...I guess it just sorta happens... I think the only thing stopping me right no from doing something drastic is lack of funds...
I have a sucky job now where I am only getting two hours a day which suck such bad balls that it ain't even funny... i.e. the reason why I need a new job...
Hmmm....It's rather cold in here....I think I might need to put some clothes on after all...that sucks because I was so comfortable too...
*sigh*
No, I am not in the nude...I am wearing a robe...and panties of course. They are the jungle stripped ones. :) Anywho, I best go look for pjs before I catch pneumonia. Lord knows we can't have that happen. Then I might not be able to work for the two measly hours that they are giving me.... Okay I swear I am done grumbling now.
Goodnight and Later Days