Because I want people to know my side of the story...
As most of you know I deleted a friend from twitter and various other things yesterday. This has been coming for a while. I felt bad having to do it but since she *always* makes herself out to be the victim I just want people to know WHY i ended up deleting her...
It really all started after VAMPS tour last year. After I see HYDE and know i'm not going to see him again for a while I get depressed I call it Post HYDE Syndrome or PHS. When im depressed I tend to prefer to be alone or do something to keep my mind off things. Well last year I ended up starting to play cards with my HYDEIST friends. Well this *friend* got PISSED because i was playing cards and starting constantly saying i was ignoring her even though i was talking to her EVERYDAY at that point. But if i left her for 10 mins she would get mad. This went on for a while until she started actually calling me *crazy* and even quoted to me mental disorders and told me thats what i had because I was abandoning my friends for a game. However i was STILL talking to her everyday at this point just not ALL day long..
At this point we really stopped playing the HYDEIST game because it was making people sad I mean whats the point of a game if it makes you sad to play? Its supposed to be a fun thing right?
I started talking to her alot again but keep in mind i NEVER stopped talking to her at this point just not as much but see what she does? Even today she makes me feel guilty because i couldn't spend every minute of the day talking to her. But now when I would try to talk to her she would say bad things about HYDE. Like "hyde has no manners not like Kaz" and various other things that i can't remember now. I know its silly to get pissed because of this BUT hyde is my life just like kaz is hers and I NEVER once said anything bad about kaz to her even though i admit I like kaz but he definitely isn't the reason i go to the lives. But that is no different than me and L'arc i am a HYDE fan and that has never been a secret.
Her saying things like that was just the beginning of her bitchiness. Every single day it got worse and our conversations would always end up in some kind of argument. Now i dont know about you but I can't talk to someone who i have to argue with every time we talk.
At this point I did start pulling away from her I would still talk to her but i ddnt talk to her everyday or long at a time. I mean every relationship whether it be friends or what needs a break at some point. I understand that but apparently she didnt..
It wasn't too long after that until my circle of friends including her all starting using twitter. It was easier for us all to communication that way since we could talk through our phones and on top of that I got a job. I have been working 12-8:30 pm everyday for almost 5 months now. Well the same thing was happening on twitter if she posted ANYTHING even if it was some random comment she would say things like "why am i even on twitter everyone ignores me".... I work all day long at a CALL CENTER i am on the phone 8 hours a day i can't reply to EVERYTHING especially if its something you can't really reply to..
Well it got to the point on twitter to where you COULD NOT have a conversation. If you were trying to talk she would always say something bitchy or rude to ruin the conversation and then we would just all stop talking.. If the spotlight isn't on her 100% of the time she is being ignored and once again everything with her started to turn into an argument.
I know she is feeling down right now and i really feel bad about that but she isn't the only one whose life sucks. I was jobless for a VERY long time. I missed seeing HYDE in 2006 because of no money. I know very well what she is feeling right now BUT that does not give her an excuse to act the way she has been acting and most of you on here and seen some of the things she does with your own eyes..
I'm sorry for this LONG post but she always runs crying to people trying to make me be the bad guy and i just want everyone to know why i finally broke last night and deleted her..
*to the person this is about IF YOU READ THIS.
I AM NOT trying to be mean to you. Realize everyone has their own lives and can't always be around 100% of the time. I know it sucks about the job thing BUT you got a job and quit that one.. I'm sorry I can't feel bad for you at that point.. it was a job.. little more is better than no money.
If you dont make it to see VAMPS this year when you get a job save and go to Japan to see OD. Thats how i had to see HYDE the first time... You gotta actually TRY to do something before you are going to see any results.
If you stop taking everything out on your friends and actually talk to them without being rude or a bitch people would actually talk to you..
You say you wonder why no one talks to you now its not that no one likes you its just no one CAN talk to you. It has to be your way or no way.. You were a great friend and i care a lot for you but i just can't play the childish games anymore.
Life sucks and is very unfair. I could go into work tomorrow and not have a job I realize that. You should have been saving for the tour before you lost your job if it really meant that much to you. thats why i got my tour money saved before i started spending my paycheck because i KNEW i could lose my job and seeing HYDE was my priority.. Please dont bitch and whine about something that was your own fault..
If you ever decide you can be a friend again and actually talk without being demanding and bitchy you know how to find me.
I did not proof read this so im sure there are typos misspelled words etc. I'm sorry I just needed to tell everyone why it happened..
I disabled comments because i am not here to argue.
It really all started after VAMPS tour last year. After I see HYDE and know i'm not going to see him again for a while I get depressed I call it Post HYDE Syndrome or PHS. When im depressed I tend to prefer to be alone or do something to keep my mind off things. Well last year I ended up starting to play cards with my HYDEIST friends. Well this *friend* got PISSED because i was playing cards and starting constantly saying i was ignoring her even though i was talking to her EVERYDAY at that point. But if i left her for 10 mins she would get mad. This went on for a while until she started actually calling me *crazy* and even quoted to me mental disorders and told me thats what i had because I was abandoning my friends for a game. However i was STILL talking to her everyday at this point just not ALL day long..
At this point we really stopped playing the HYDEIST game because it was making people sad I mean whats the point of a game if it makes you sad to play? Its supposed to be a fun thing right?
I started talking to her alot again but keep in mind i NEVER stopped talking to her at this point just not as much but see what she does? Even today she makes me feel guilty because i couldn't spend every minute of the day talking to her. But now when I would try to talk to her she would say bad things about HYDE. Like "hyde has no manners not like Kaz" and various other things that i can't remember now. I know its silly to get pissed because of this BUT hyde is my life just like kaz is hers and I NEVER once said anything bad about kaz to her even though i admit I like kaz but he definitely isn't the reason i go to the lives. But that is no different than me and L'arc i am a HYDE fan and that has never been a secret.
Her saying things like that was just the beginning of her bitchiness. Every single day it got worse and our conversations would always end up in some kind of argument. Now i dont know about you but I can't talk to someone who i have to argue with every time we talk.
At this point I did start pulling away from her I would still talk to her but i ddnt talk to her everyday or long at a time. I mean every relationship whether it be friends or what needs a break at some point. I understand that but apparently she didnt..
It wasn't too long after that until my circle of friends including her all starting using twitter. It was easier for us all to communication that way since we could talk through our phones and on top of that I got a job. I have been working 12-8:30 pm everyday for almost 5 months now. Well the same thing was happening on twitter if she posted ANYTHING even if it was some random comment she would say things like "why am i even on twitter everyone ignores me".... I work all day long at a CALL CENTER i am on the phone 8 hours a day i can't reply to EVERYTHING especially if its something you can't really reply to..
Well it got to the point on twitter to where you COULD NOT have a conversation. If you were trying to talk she would always say something bitchy or rude to ruin the conversation and then we would just all stop talking.. If the spotlight isn't on her 100% of the time she is being ignored and once again everything with her started to turn into an argument.
I know she is feeling down right now and i really feel bad about that but she isn't the only one whose life sucks. I was jobless for a VERY long time. I missed seeing HYDE in 2006 because of no money. I know very well what she is feeling right now BUT that does not give her an excuse to act the way she has been acting and most of you on here and seen some of the things she does with your own eyes..
I'm sorry for this LONG post but she always runs crying to people trying to make me be the bad guy and i just want everyone to know why i finally broke last night and deleted her..
*to the person this is about IF YOU READ THIS.
I AM NOT trying to be mean to you. Realize everyone has their own lives and can't always be around 100% of the time. I know it sucks about the job thing BUT you got a job and quit that one.. I'm sorry I can't feel bad for you at that point.. it was a job.. little more is better than no money.
If you dont make it to see VAMPS this year when you get a job save and go to Japan to see OD. Thats how i had to see HYDE the first time... You gotta actually TRY to do something before you are going to see any results.
If you stop taking everything out on your friends and actually talk to them without being rude or a bitch people would actually talk to you..
You say you wonder why no one talks to you now its not that no one likes you its just no one CAN talk to you. It has to be your way or no way.. You were a great friend and i care a lot for you but i just can't play the childish games anymore.
Life sucks and is very unfair. I could go into work tomorrow and not have a job I realize that. You should have been saving for the tour before you lost your job if it really meant that much to you. thats why i got my tour money saved before i started spending my paycheck because i KNEW i could lose my job and seeing HYDE was my priority.. Please dont bitch and whine about something that was your own fault..
If you ever decide you can be a friend again and actually talk without being demanding and bitchy you know how to find me.
I did not proof read this so im sure there are typos misspelled words etc. I'm sorry I just needed to tell everyone why it happened..
I disabled comments because i am not here to argue.