[IC (Rynlan)]
I don't know what to do with this.
Something is undeniably wrong here, and I'm not sure whether the trouble is with the situation or in my own reaction to it (which was admittedly poor, and still is.) Either I really am every bit as desperate as I feel, or I shouldn't even be feeling like this is the case; neither of these is exactly a good side to be on.
I have more important problems to be worrying about and yet here I am, lying awake and wondering whether I'm a terrible person or just too lonely to think straight and which of these I'd prefer to be right now. Really need to talk to the healer again. Really don't want to.
Fel, what is she even going to think? Further proof I've lost my damned mind, I think. I'm guessing something that she'll want to fix as well.
I'm not sure whether that would be a bad thing. This has never been a problem for me before, maybe it'd be best to just forget it ever happened. Still. Where does that leave me after? I might have other options, yes, but none of the others I speak to have been as-- I don't even know how to put it. Patient? I still am not sure why he's put up with me this long. It's been one extended string of fuckups to deal with, and then a conversation I never wanted to have that went in what was probably the most insulting way I could have possibly managed.
Good work, Dawnslight, how's that for proving you're better now, or that you give half a damn?
Something is undeniably wrong here, and I'm not sure whether the trouble is with the situation or in my own reaction to it (which was admittedly poor, and still is.) Either I really am every bit as desperate as I feel, or I shouldn't even be feeling like this is the case; neither of these is exactly a good side to be on.
I have more important problems to be worrying about and yet here I am, lying awake and wondering whether I'm a terrible person or just too lonely to think straight and which of these I'd prefer to be right now. Really need to talk to the healer again. Really don't want to.
Fel, what is she even going to think? Further proof I've lost my damned mind, I think. I'm guessing something that she'll want to fix as well.
I'm not sure whether that would be a bad thing. This has never been a problem for me before, maybe it'd be best to just forget it ever happened. Still. Where does that leave me after? I might have other options, yes, but none of the others I speak to have been as-- I don't even know how to put it. Patient? I still am not sure why he's put up with me this long. It's been one extended string of fuckups to deal with, and then a conversation I never wanted to have that went in what was probably the most insulting way I could have possibly managed.
Good work, Dawnslight, how's that for proving you're better now, or that you give half a damn?