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well, im on cturches now! i finaly went to the doctor and he put me on crutches so it would stop hurting and could start to heal. Do you know how much that sucks? I can't handle this whole crutches thing...i hate crutches! My arms hurt so bad already and i've only had them for like 24 hours plus a few hours! I dont' like em. but its totally cool! whatever! I got confronted 2x last night by rick and justin. rick was telling me that i was better than what i was lowering myself to be. He asked me why i was looking for my confidence in those boys...why does it matter to anyone if i am or not. I dont' look for my confidence in them, i look for fun cause i can be myself around them. I love the attention...not even like all the crap that they try to pull...they just actually say hi and pay attention to me at all. unlike the rest of the world. Why does he want me to change when he needs to tell those boys to treat me differently if he feels like its a problem. but why does he need to think so highly of me when i can't even think that highly of myself? What gives him that right? He said that what the boys are doing is gonna hurt me but how can it hurt me cause i don't let ppl in...ihven't for a long time everyone knows it. then justin told me that i need to get my life right and maybe God will give me back running. and such know hes right but gosh why 2 in one day and the same day that i got crutches?