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i am one of the most impatient people i have ever known. when i want to know something, i have to know it then. and when i feel something i have to act on it right then. and thats one of the reasons i keep ending up here. here being that awesome friend. or i like that think thats one of the reasons. cause then it means that one of the reasons isnt because i have gained like, 10 pounds since i got to college. or something else. its obviously not my personality because here i am, that "awesome friend" and u dont get that status unless u are cool. haha god am i kidding myself?
i just did something i havent done in a VERYYYYYY long time. i called bill. haha but its okay cause it went straight to voicemail and that is a good thing. i suppose its just cause he is where i am end running a lot in my moments of weakness. when i am feeling the worse about myself. or just when something goes wrong.
i am looking at the cork board that is behind my desk. at all the faces of the people that i love, and that love me. k now i am looking at the picture of my family from last summer at eileen's grad party. i can't wait to go home. i am going this weekend. i will prob leave thursday after work. i never go to journalism on friday's anywayz. the sooner the better. be in my bed with my own thoughts.
errr stupid tears. stupid stupid stupid tears. go away.
okay wow so tomorrow i am covering someone's shift at work, tomrrow night. and they are covering my shift tuesday when i go to NFG. why did i not even realize i have a class tomorrow. i am supposed 2 b at work at 3. and my class starts at three. wow. i have been having a lot of those moments lately. shit.
anywayz.
at least now i know that i am just an awesome friend and i can keep going?
weird thing is, i dont think this is gonna be one of those crushes where i just move on to the next guy. this was one of those crushes that was beyond physical and like, the fact that he gives me attention. i have only had one other real crush like that this year. and that one hurt too.
yay.
i changed my away message about 5 times tonight before i just got offline cause nothing was working.
a second passes by and i regret it
words just aren't right
sometimes i just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me
always on my mind
that was a good one. straylight run is so good. thursday....o man.... <3 i might been to take a loan out from my mom for a shirt. how said is that.
pitiful. i know.
i am done with this entry. and this day. i am sleeping. and tomorrow failing a journalism exam.
because i studied for about 5 minutes. literally. its hard cause now that i know i dont need that class i just want to give it up haha. but i need those credits. so i just wanna pass and get my credits and move on...
later
i just did something i havent done in a VERYYYYYY long time. i called bill. haha but its okay cause it went straight to voicemail and that is a good thing. i suppose its just cause he is where i am end running a lot in my moments of weakness. when i am feeling the worse about myself. or just when something goes wrong.
i am looking at the cork board that is behind my desk. at all the faces of the people that i love, and that love me. k now i am looking at the picture of my family from last summer at eileen's grad party. i can't wait to go home. i am going this weekend. i will prob leave thursday after work. i never go to journalism on friday's anywayz. the sooner the better. be in my bed with my own thoughts.
errr stupid tears. stupid stupid stupid tears. go away.
okay wow so tomorrow i am covering someone's shift at work, tomrrow night. and they are covering my shift tuesday when i go to NFG. why did i not even realize i have a class tomorrow. i am supposed 2 b at work at 3. and my class starts at three. wow. i have been having a lot of those moments lately. shit.
anywayz.
at least now i know that i am just an awesome friend and i can keep going?
weird thing is, i dont think this is gonna be one of those crushes where i just move on to the next guy. this was one of those crushes that was beyond physical and like, the fact that he gives me attention. i have only had one other real crush like that this year. and that one hurt too.
yay.
i changed my away message about 5 times tonight before i just got offline cause nothing was working.
a second passes by and i regret it
words just aren't right
sometimes i just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me
always on my mind
that was a good one. straylight run is so good. thursday....o man.... <3 i might been to take a loan out from my mom for a shirt. how said is that.
pitiful. i know.
i am done with this entry. and this day. i am sleeping. and tomorrow failing a journalism exam.
because i studied for about 5 minutes. literally. its hard cause now that i know i dont need that class i just want to give it up haha. but i need those credits. so i just wanna pass and get my credits and move on...
later