hmmm
okay so i actually manage to not obsess about livejournal for one evening and i miss a post that i prob shouldnt have missed
damnit andre, its cause i was havin 2 much fun talking to you! :-D
anywayz
um so people are writing posts talking about priorities and what have you. and i feel like a loser cause i dont know what my prioities are. i want to say right now school is first. cause thats what it needs to be. but honestly there is still a huge part of me that isnt here. i mean i am here with the people and the environment but i am not here with the school work and the reading. i am not motivated. but i am workin on it! its fun cause now i know what i wanna be, kinda, when i grow up, so i have something to shoot for so thats awesome
i feel a tad distant from my amir right now cause i didnt talk to him all weekend and i havent seen him in a week. but he should be coming over for dinner tonight so whoo hoo
i have a lot to do tonight.
damnit this was supposed to be a deep meaningful post.
how about this for deep and meaningful. i miss my family haha
i cant wait to go home and wake up in my bed every morning, even if it is at 6am, and go to work with my mommy and have lunches with my amir, since i will be working 5 minutes from his house, and make money and get out of debt, and just be in the D, sitting on my porch in the evening on the phoner and just things of that nature cause thats where it feels right
HOWEVER
i am gonna be at least a 1/2 hour from my 2 best friends. amir = 30 min away. shawn = 45ish
and that makes me super scared. cause even though i love my family, my friends are like an extended version of the fam
but we wil see how it goes
plus once pam and eileen are home i will have them too
pam is gonna be my running buddy over the summer so i can keep on goin
i feel like lately things are going through changes. and i find myself not putting effort into things when i feel i dont get anything from them. and i dont know if that is good or bad. i think its bad. but its hard to change.
um
thats all.
damnit andre, its cause i was havin 2 much fun talking to you! :-D
anywayz
um so people are writing posts talking about priorities and what have you. and i feel like a loser cause i dont know what my prioities are. i want to say right now school is first. cause thats what it needs to be. but honestly there is still a huge part of me that isnt here. i mean i am here with the people and the environment but i am not here with the school work and the reading. i am not motivated. but i am workin on it! its fun cause now i know what i wanna be, kinda, when i grow up, so i have something to shoot for so thats awesome
i feel a tad distant from my amir right now cause i didnt talk to him all weekend and i havent seen him in a week. but he should be coming over for dinner tonight so whoo hoo
i have a lot to do tonight.
damnit this was supposed to be a deep meaningful post.
how about this for deep and meaningful. i miss my family haha
i cant wait to go home and wake up in my bed every morning, even if it is at 6am, and go to work with my mommy and have lunches with my amir, since i will be working 5 minutes from his house, and make money and get out of debt, and just be in the D, sitting on my porch in the evening on the phoner and just things of that nature cause thats where it feels right
HOWEVER
i am gonna be at least a 1/2 hour from my 2 best friends. amir = 30 min away. shawn = 45ish
and that makes me super scared. cause even though i love my family, my friends are like an extended version of the fam
but we wil see how it goes
plus once pam and eileen are home i will have them too
pam is gonna be my running buddy over the summer so i can keep on goin
i feel like lately things are going through changes. and i find myself not putting effort into things when i feel i dont get anything from them. and i dont know if that is good or bad. i think its bad. but its hard to change.
um
thats all.