This time we put the "act" in action...
I have never wanted something so bad, needed something so much. I've never wanted something so much and not been able to have it. How can you, Why do you need something this much that you know you can't have? Why does every action you take to try to get it put it further and further out of your reach? How fucked up is that?
My life pretty much sucks right now. School, girls, money. Family is okay. At long last after 18 years of a fucked up family I'm finally okay in that department, but nothing else is. I really can't wait until I go up to New York. 10 hour road trip by myself, listening to music, viewing the scenery, contemplating life.
I need to start getting on the ball. Next semester I'm gonna buckle down. I say that like it's my first time, but at least I know how college is now. I need more discipline. I'm gonna stop smoking/drinking, because that is a relatively easy start. Not like I do it much at all anyway, but by declaring I'm not going to totally removes that distraction. I have more fun when I'm straight now anyway.
I might keep my totally slack ass job at Arthur's making $100/week, and just cut my spending drastically. Starting after Christmas, heh).
I want to write more in this movie I've started. Then you guys can say you knew me way back when after I became a famous movie writer/director/actor.
My life pretty much sucks right now. School, girls, money. Family is okay. At long last after 18 years of a fucked up family I'm finally okay in that department, but nothing else is. I really can't wait until I go up to New York. 10 hour road trip by myself, listening to music, viewing the scenery, contemplating life.
I need to start getting on the ball. Next semester I'm gonna buckle down. I say that like it's my first time, but at least I know how college is now. I need more discipline. I'm gonna stop smoking/drinking, because that is a relatively easy start. Not like I do it much at all anyway, but by declaring I'm not going to totally removes that distraction. I have more fun when I'm straight now anyway.
I might keep my totally slack ass job at Arthur's making $100/week, and just cut my spending drastically. Starting after Christmas, heh).
I want to write more in this movie I've started. Then you guys can say you knew me way back when after I became a famous movie writer/director/actor.