times are hard for dreamers
i know i said i'd try to update again before spring break was over, but things came up and i lost track of time. lots of stuff has happened in the two or three weeks since i last wrote, and it's been keeping me pretty busy. why must everything happen in the last few weeks of school?
after my last entry, my plan was to finish up my school assignment before getting in one last entry for the break. however, this was soon interrupted by a call from michelle. there was going to be a lock in at the church, and she wouldn't be satisfied until i agreed to go. i was reluctant, but it's hard for me to say no to anyone. i was to be picked up at five with my brother, who she also coerced into going.
the next twelve or so hours were full of weird games, movies, and tons of junk food. really, aside from the occasional church related activity, it was a lot like a big slumber party. i don't really feel like going into the details of the night, but overall, it was pretty fun. the lack of any sleep kind of sucked, but overall it was nice.
thanks to slumber party lock in and the subsequent day of rest i took, i was now left with only one day left in the break. i tried starting on my homework early so i could get to another entry, but my procrastination got the best of me. i started working sometime in the afternoon, but i didn't finish until about three in the morning. i should probably get better at that time management thing if i plan on making it in college..
the week following the break, i finally got some correspondence from the credit card people. they didn't include the credit card yet, but they did inform me of the limit i was going to get. only a mere $250. it was just enough for the acceptance deposit for tech, so i surely didn't have enough to rent a tux for prom. after what i found out the following monday, it was probably for the best that i didn't go, anyway.
when i got back to school after the weekend, it was much like it was last year: all the girls still had their prom do's, stories of what happened were floating around everywhere, and of course - the pictures. mrs. bowman took a lot while she was there, so she shared them with us while in drafting. most of them were nothing out of the ordinary, but one stood out to me in particular. there was a picture of drew and his prom date, latoya.
after the initial shock was over, i found it hard to keep from crying. when latoya went off to college, i thought for sure they had broken up. apparently, that was only a sad mistake though. if they're still going out, that means they're going on two years now. thinking about everything just made me feel stupid for ever believing there was hope in the first place. a lot of people asked me what was wrong, but it just made me want to cry even more. luckily, when i got to the bus, most of the people were missing, and i got to sit in the back alone. i cried most of the way home, something i haven't done that since freshmen year..
surprisingly, my depression didn't last long. that probably had a lot to do with how bad things with drew were going anyway. i was lucky to see him at all during the day now, and it had just become less since he stopped taking the route past my locker. i guess seeing the picture was just a reality check. still, it was the last thing i wanted..
after monday, i rebounded pretty quickly. by friday, i was well enough to go to the final math competition of the year. this one was better than the last as it was at fort discovery, the local science and math center for kids, rather than a boring university. when we finished up with the competition part of the day, we had a brief lunch, and then got the opportunity to wander around and look at the different exhibits before the award ceremony. most of the people who came had us history work to do, but the two brittany's and i got to do some exploring. if you're ever in augusta, it's a pretty nifty place to go.
when we had finally finished looking around, we all met back up in the auditorium for the award ceremony. i thought the competition was ridiculously easy, but i still wasn't sure how we'd fare compared to everyone else. none of the varsity members won any individual awards, but in the group part, we tied for second place. in junior varsity, we had a few individual winners and got first for the team part. overall, it was much better than our last competition.
i expected the following week to be pretty enjoyable considering it was senior week, but really, friday was the only day that even approached fun. pretty surprising considering the week they set up for us:
with days like that, who would have guessed it wouldn't be that exciting? really, i don't even remember the mardi gras day. come to think of it, i don't think i was even there. hmm, i guess i went to the math competition that day then.. meh, i don't feel like rearranging the entry so that it's chronological.
anyway, along with friday being royalty day, it was also the day of the senior production. classes were cut short, and at the end of the day, we all piled into the gym for the two hour show. most of the it just included dance sequences, but the part i enjoyed most was the different skits. they had reenactments of past events, parody's of teachers, and even an american idol knock-off. i was in the show for a little for this parade thing, but no one even told me about it until that very afternoon. they ended up cutting a lot of parts due to time, but it was still pretty good. i got kind of sweaty from being packed into our small air conditioningless gym for so long, but i still had a nice time.
this week has been a lot less slack then last week was. ap exams are next week, and i've been getting lots of practice exams to prepare for it. i hope i do well on them. i'm pretty sure that ga tech only accepts fives (the highest you can get). no pressure though.
speaking of college, i finally got most of the stuff squared away. i got the deposits paid just barely on time (they're due may 1st), and i even signed up to get my friend michael as my room mate. when he first asked if i'd room with him, i thought nothing of just saying yes. after thinking about it though, it seemed kind of wrong to room with him without telling him i was gay. i had been trying to tell him for the past two weeks, but i finally did it yesterday. it was a lot harder than it had been when i told anyone else, but luckily, he was absolutely fine with it. with a little luck, we should be rooming together next year.
geeze, college really isn't that far away now. i say it's next year, but really, "next year" is a mere four monthes away. it's so exciting to finally be able to get out of here. school's become so stale recently. i'm stifled by how everyday seems to be so much like the last. i can't wait until everything can finally be new again.
after my last entry, my plan was to finish up my school assignment before getting in one last entry for the break. however, this was soon interrupted by a call from michelle. there was going to be a lock in at the church, and she wouldn't be satisfied until i agreed to go. i was reluctant, but it's hard for me to say no to anyone. i was to be picked up at five with my brother, who she also coerced into going.
the next twelve or so hours were full of weird games, movies, and tons of junk food. really, aside from the occasional church related activity, it was a lot like a big slumber party. i don't really feel like going into the details of the night, but overall, it was pretty fun. the lack of any sleep kind of sucked, but overall it was nice.
thanks to slumber party lock in and the subsequent day of rest i took, i was now left with only one day left in the break. i tried starting on my homework early so i could get to another entry, but my procrastination got the best of me. i started working sometime in the afternoon, but i didn't finish until about three in the morning. i should probably get better at that time management thing if i plan on making it in college..
the week following the break, i finally got some correspondence from the credit card people. they didn't include the credit card yet, but they did inform me of the limit i was going to get. only a mere $250. it was just enough for the acceptance deposit for tech, so i surely didn't have enough to rent a tux for prom. after what i found out the following monday, it was probably for the best that i didn't go, anyway.
when i got back to school after the weekend, it was much like it was last year: all the girls still had their prom do's, stories of what happened were floating around everywhere, and of course - the pictures. mrs. bowman took a lot while she was there, so she shared them with us while in drafting. most of them were nothing out of the ordinary, but one stood out to me in particular. there was a picture of drew and his prom date, latoya.
after the initial shock was over, i found it hard to keep from crying. when latoya went off to college, i thought for sure they had broken up. apparently, that was only a sad mistake though. if they're still going out, that means they're going on two years now. thinking about everything just made me feel stupid for ever believing there was hope in the first place. a lot of people asked me what was wrong, but it just made me want to cry even more. luckily, when i got to the bus, most of the people were missing, and i got to sit in the back alone. i cried most of the way home, something i haven't done that since freshmen year..
surprisingly, my depression didn't last long. that probably had a lot to do with how bad things with drew were going anyway. i was lucky to see him at all during the day now, and it had just become less since he stopped taking the route past my locker. i guess seeing the picture was just a reality check. still, it was the last thing i wanted..
after monday, i rebounded pretty quickly. by friday, i was well enough to go to the final math competition of the year. this one was better than the last as it was at fort discovery, the local science and math center for kids, rather than a boring university. when we finished up with the competition part of the day, we had a brief lunch, and then got the opportunity to wander around and look at the different exhibits before the award ceremony. most of the people who came had us history work to do, but the two brittany's and i got to do some exploring. if you're ever in augusta, it's a pretty nifty place to go.
when we had finally finished looking around, we all met back up in the auditorium for the award ceremony. i thought the competition was ridiculously easy, but i still wasn't sure how we'd fare compared to everyone else. none of the varsity members won any individual awards, but in the group part, we tied for second place. in junior varsity, we had a few individual winners and got first for the team part. overall, it was much better than our last competition.
i expected the following week to be pretty enjoyable considering it was senior week, but really, friday was the only day that even approached fun. pretty surprising considering the week they set up for us:
- monday - cartoon character/celebrity day: dress as a cartoon character or celebrity
- college/sports day: wear your favourite college or sports shirt
- student/teacher switch day: teach a class if the teacher approves
- mardi gras day: wear personalized masks and beads
- royalty day: wear your senior spirit week t-shirt along with your personalized senior crown
with days like that, who would have guessed it wouldn't be that exciting? really, i don't even remember the mardi gras day. come to think of it, i don't think i was even there. hmm, i guess i went to the math competition that day then.. meh, i don't feel like rearranging the entry so that it's chronological.
anyway, along with friday being royalty day, it was also the day of the senior production. classes were cut short, and at the end of the day, we all piled into the gym for the two hour show. most of the it just included dance sequences, but the part i enjoyed most was the different skits. they had reenactments of past events, parody's of teachers, and even an american idol knock-off. i was in the show for a little for this parade thing, but no one even told me about it until that very afternoon. they ended up cutting a lot of parts due to time, but it was still pretty good. i got kind of sweaty from being packed into our small air conditioningless gym for so long, but i still had a nice time.
this week has been a lot less slack then last week was. ap exams are next week, and i've been getting lots of practice exams to prepare for it. i hope i do well on them. i'm pretty sure that ga tech only accepts fives (the highest you can get). no pressure though.
speaking of college, i finally got most of the stuff squared away. i got the deposits paid just barely on time (they're due may 1st), and i even signed up to get my friend michael as my room mate. when he first asked if i'd room with him, i thought nothing of just saying yes. after thinking about it though, it seemed kind of wrong to room with him without telling him i was gay. i had been trying to tell him for the past two weeks, but i finally did it yesterday. it was a lot harder than it had been when i told anyone else, but luckily, he was absolutely fine with it. with a little luck, we should be rooming together next year.
geeze, college really isn't that far away now. i say it's next year, but really, "next year" is a mere four monthes away. it's so exciting to finally be able to get out of here. school's become so stale recently. i'm stifled by how everyday seems to be so much like the last. i can't wait until everything can finally be new again.