even yet still more dreaming
last night i dreamed i was pregnant. i wasn't happy glowy pregnant. ugh. i feel sick and irritated now. pregnant dreams are not happy dreams for me. kelly and i were working together at some theme park and we were both pregnant. i was feeling her baby kick. mine wasn't kicking. i remembered that i had accidentally been taking birth control pills the whole time i was pregnant so i was worried about what the effect would be on the baby. also vince was there and when i went back home i noticed he had taken all of my clothes and bela's clothes out of our closets. this made me so upset and i cried and cried and cried. turns out there was some ad in the newspaper that you could bring all your clothes down to this place and they'd spray them with this stuff that detoxified them and got rid of any fleas or bugs or toxicity or bad vibes. i thought, hm. okay. also bela's wiggles t-shirt came in the mail (in real life, i actually did order her a wiggles t shirt). it was blue with puffy sleeves and very girly and cute. and also i was pregnant i was pregnant eww eww eww. i better hurry up and bleed.
in other non dream news: i am working at the pizzeria this morning. i don't know what chipper happy spirit possessed my body last week and made me call tina and tell her i'd like to work this week, but whoever they are, they're out of my body now, and i totally just want to stay in bed and snooze. working, bah. i am the kind of person who, every day before work, thinks about all the reasons they don't want to go, and all the reasons they don't like it. i am not a positive person in the work category. but okay, it'll be fun. i'll get to see tina and amanda, both of whom i love dearly. i'll get to drink some good sweet tea and eat some good free lunch. it probably won't be that busy as it is tuesday and rainy and not a high-volume lunch day. negative things: people are going to be asking about my fucking foot over and over and i don't feel like talking about it and explaining it to everyone. also my foot still gets really swollen if i'm up on it for very long, which will definitely happen if i'm waiting tables. i think i can handle it, though. (for those who are new to my journal - hey y'all! - i broke my foot a couple months ago and had to wear a creepy metal fixator on it for five weeks and have just had it out of my foot for three weeks.)
bullshit! bullshit! bullshit!
in other non dream news: i am working at the pizzeria this morning. i don't know what chipper happy spirit possessed my body last week and made me call tina and tell her i'd like to work this week, but whoever they are, they're out of my body now, and i totally just want to stay in bed and snooze. working, bah. i am the kind of person who, every day before work, thinks about all the reasons they don't want to go, and all the reasons they don't like it. i am not a positive person in the work category. but okay, it'll be fun. i'll get to see tina and amanda, both of whom i love dearly. i'll get to drink some good sweet tea and eat some good free lunch. it probably won't be that busy as it is tuesday and rainy and not a high-volume lunch day. negative things: people are going to be asking about my fucking foot over and over and i don't feel like talking about it and explaining it to everyone. also my foot still gets really swollen if i'm up on it for very long, which will definitely happen if i'm waiting tables. i think i can handle it, though. (for those who are new to my journal - hey y'all! - i broke my foot a couple months ago and had to wear a creepy metal fixator on it for five weeks and have just had it out of my foot for three weeks.)
bullshit! bullshit! bullshit!