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Tracey and Eli are officially OVER.
yup...no more boyfriend. It's pretty upsetting. It VERY hard to just let go after almost 7 months. it'll take a LONG time and i might find myself at times alone in my room regreting it...but ive just got to get through it. He's been a HUGE part of me for almost a year...this is HARD! i dont know what to do. but it needed to end...it was headed in the completely wrong direction. I feel horrible and i just feel like breaking down and crying. but i can let it get to me...so here i go...me on my own without eli. I want him to continue to be in my life...but i dont know how easy that will be. who knows. hopefully it'll all work out for the best. i need all the support i can get. i gotta get through it.
*Now again i find myself so far down...away from the sun*
life is HARD. boys are HARDER.
I love eli. but now its over. time to cry.
i'll miss all the good times...but i am so glad that all the bad times are gone.
how depressing...