I've been reading your journal off and on, since finding you through some of our mutual communities. This is, I think, the first time I've been moved to comment on your journal.
I don't know why I believe, or even WHAT I believe. I know that there is something out there, I'm just not entirely sure what that something is. Sometimes, I will hear/feel it calling to me, other times I don't. I think that my basic beliefs boil down to being some flavor of Christianity. I've attended a few different churches during my lifetime (Baptist, Southern Baptist, Nazarene, Brethren and Methodist), some regularly, some just one or three visits. None of them has felt like "home" to me, so I know I need to keep searching.
I know that I'm headed in the right direction though. The last several times that I have attended services (the last of which was well over a year ago), I've been moved to tears at some point during the service. Sometimes during the sermon or during the hymns, once while doing the "greet your neighbor and welcome him/her" routine.
I need to resume my search for "home." Thank you for the reminder.
Searching for a hometracerooJune 8 2007, 13:39:52 UTC
Samantha, welcome! I appreciate the visit, and thank you so much for sharing this part of yourself and your search with me. I appreciate hearing from you.
Do you think your call to the divine is through community? That you feel closest to God while in the community of his worship?
I ask not in any way as a challenge to you. Ian and I are strongly envious of the community of organized religion (some more than others, and this may have to do more with congregation than religion, per se). For us, there's just that little detail of not believing in God! Organized religion has its obvious flaws, certainly, but so very much positive to lend to people to embrace it, and desire it.
I can easily see how being a part of such an environment could prompt one to be a better person, more open, and strengthen their relationship with their faith, make them more active. I'm always interested in the stories of people who dwell in such a place spiritually.
I wish you good fortune and peace in your continued search!
I don't know why I believe, or even WHAT I believe. I know that there is something out there, I'm just not entirely sure what that something is. Sometimes, I will hear/feel it calling to me, other times I don't. I think that my basic beliefs boil down to being some flavor of Christianity. I've attended a few different churches during my lifetime (Baptist, Southern Baptist, Nazarene, Brethren and Methodist), some regularly, some just one or three visits. None of them has felt like "home" to me, so I know I need to keep searching.
I know that I'm headed in the right direction though. The last several times that I have attended services (the last of which was well over a year ago), I've been moved to tears at some point during the service. Sometimes during the sermon or during the hymns, once while doing the "greet your neighbor and welcome him/her" routine.
I need to resume my search for "home." Thank you for the reminder.
Samantha
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Do you think your call to the divine is through community? That you feel closest to God while in the community of his worship?
I ask not in any way as a challenge to you. Ian and I are strongly envious of the community of organized religion (some more than others, and this may have to do more with congregation than religion, per se). For us, there's just that little detail of not believing in God! Organized religion has its obvious flaws, certainly, but so very much positive to lend to people to embrace it, and desire it.
I can easily see how being a part of such an environment could prompt one to be a better person, more open, and strengthen their relationship with their faith, make them more active. I'm always interested in the stories of people who dwell in such a place spiritually.
I wish you good fortune and peace in your continued search!
Trace
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