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ok.. so wow.. things have changed.. i'm going to the hospital tomorrow so they can induce my labor.. yes, i said labor.. 4 days after my last entry.. meaning the day after christmas, my birthday, i came down with tonsilitis and went to the ER to get something done about it.. and i found out that i was pregnant.. casey, the assholic father, wants me to put it up for adoption but i don't talk to him anymore.. he got his new gf pregnant too so... um.. aj is messing my mind up to pieces.. i don't know what to do about him either.. he got kicked out of the navy.. or is getting kicked out.. exactly one year after he joined he has to leave it all behind.. um.. he started talking about me still marrying him despite the things in our past, present, and very near future (the baby).. he wants me to move to arizona to be with him in a few months.. the thing is.. i dunno if that's gonna happen.. he talks all this then, i get a slap in the face.. he told me i needed to get an account on myspace.com so i could "see all his raver friends".. i did, today.. and i looked at his profile.. and needless to say, i'm not pleased.. he's claiming to be single and has what he's looking for in a gurl on his profile.. i sent him a message saying "if that's what you want it can be arranged".. i dunno what to do anymore.. i guess just let life unfold the way it wants to and not the way i want it to.. oh well.. as i say a lot.. life goes on