whats happening in this world?

[traceee]

So,,, I went to Portland for a loooooooooooong weekend 4 days to be exact. Got fucked up alot and stuff and it was a total heat wave which sucked. Sad stuff happened, this band The Exploding Hearts were all killed in an accident driving back from S.F. One of the guys survived and it's just real messed up, sad and scarey. I didn't really know the guys well just talked to them when drunk a couple times here in Seattle and got a ride to a party with one of them once but damn it's weird. The Portland paper described the accident in too much detail if you ask me it gave too much of a visual. The surviving guy called the other day to have the Spits play a memorial show down in Portland next week but it's on a Wednesday so I can't go.
So anyway the weekend was long and now I am back here and staying here this weekend.
What else what else oh man I think I am freaking out because I actually have some spare time right now and I just don't know what to do with it. It's still fucking hot out so I think I will just sit here and be hot and stare at this computer or else I could watch a movie.
Also, I am so freaked out on the fact that in just a few weeks I am done with school and moving out of this town and I have no job and no money and the thing is I just don't wanna work I need to find an angle.