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You know... I've done a lot of soul searching these past few days...
I've been looking at my life from every POSSIBLE perspective... and trying to figure out where i want to be in 10 years, and who I can see myself with...
This is the hardest thing I can ever think about.. when you have so many people in your life you care about and you don't want to hurt someone yet.. that ONE person sticks out in your mind as... as... unbelieveable.
God I know how to fuck up, ya know...
I mean... it's not like I'm binding myself to these girls I'm dating... I'm not IN LOVE with them, but I do love them. I love a lot of people... it all just depends on who I'm IN love with... and this one girl.. just sticks out in my head.
I think she knows... if not she must be pretty confused... I love her.. I'm IN love with her... I can't even digest all the love i have for her. It radiates out of me like the sun and I cant' believe no one can see it.
My heart's so big yet... I'd be willing to give it to this one girl.. all of it... just in exchange for.. for...
One more chance
And Marisa, I love you but... I'm not in love with you... and I want to stay friends with you but I don't think it's fair that I'm with you yet this girl is on my mind. You deserve a fair chance with someone who can give all of themselves to you. That's not me... as much as we both wanted it to be, it's not. I hope you can understand and not hate my guts...
But if you all excuse me.. I have some love declarations to give.
I've been looking at my life from every POSSIBLE perspective... and trying to figure out where i want to be in 10 years, and who I can see myself with...
This is the hardest thing I can ever think about.. when you have so many people in your life you care about and you don't want to hurt someone yet.. that ONE person sticks out in your mind as... as... unbelieveable.
God I know how to fuck up, ya know...
I mean... it's not like I'm binding myself to these girls I'm dating... I'm not IN LOVE with them, but I do love them. I love a lot of people... it all just depends on who I'm IN love with... and this one girl.. just sticks out in my head.
I think she knows... if not she must be pretty confused... I love her.. I'm IN love with her... I can't even digest all the love i have for her. It radiates out of me like the sun and I cant' believe no one can see it.
My heart's so big yet... I'd be willing to give it to this one girl.. all of it... just in exchange for.. for...
One more chance
And Marisa, I love you but... I'm not in love with you... and I want to stay friends with you but I don't think it's fair that I'm with you yet this girl is on my mind. You deserve a fair chance with someone who can give all of themselves to you. That's not me... as much as we both wanted it to be, it's not. I hope you can understand and not hate my guts...
But if you all excuse me.. I have some love declarations to give.