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I have a lot to say in this update, so set your little ass down and listen.
I fucked up, I know. I've gotten so many people mad at me for this. I understand what I did, how I did it, and why I did it. I don't have to explain myself to everyone as long as I know why I did the things I did.
I've gotten two of my best friends mad at me, and I'm sorry I'm an asshole. It's how I was brought up.
No one understands me. Maybe one person, but that's because he was brought up WITH me. Hell, maybe you don't know it and we're BOTH assholes. Maybe the apple juice we drank as kids had a secret ingredient or something.
But do I honestly have to justify myself, in how I've been acting? It's my life, my way, my decisions.
Sure I kick myself for what I've done to her, and I'm sorry for hurting her, and I'm sorry for being selfish, but.. maybe it's what had to be done.
Maybe God has higher plans for me. Like, not getting married yet, not starting a life, be the 22 year old I am for once in my life.
So yeah, I'm gonna hang out with J, get drunk, do things people my age do. Why? Because I'm tired of acting so much older than I really am.
I am 22, and as God is my witness, I'm going to ACT 22.
So this is my general apology to everyone I've hurt in the past because of my ways.
I'm sorry to Jenny.
I'm sorry to Jessy.
I'm sorry to Angel.
I'm sorry to Ryan.
I'm sorry to Justin.
I'm sorry to Britney.
I'm sorry to everyone.
I'm just... sorry.
I fucked up, I know. I've gotten so many people mad at me for this. I understand what I did, how I did it, and why I did it. I don't have to explain myself to everyone as long as I know why I did the things I did.
I've gotten two of my best friends mad at me, and I'm sorry I'm an asshole. It's how I was brought up.
No one understands me. Maybe one person, but that's because he was brought up WITH me. Hell, maybe you don't know it and we're BOTH assholes. Maybe the apple juice we drank as kids had a secret ingredient or something.
But do I honestly have to justify myself, in how I've been acting? It's my life, my way, my decisions.
Sure I kick myself for what I've done to her, and I'm sorry for hurting her, and I'm sorry for being selfish, but.. maybe it's what had to be done.
Maybe God has higher plans for me. Like, not getting married yet, not starting a life, be the 22 year old I am for once in my life.
So yeah, I'm gonna hang out with J, get drunk, do things people my age do. Why? Because I'm tired of acting so much older than I really am.
I am 22, and as God is my witness, I'm going to ACT 22.
So this is my general apology to everyone I've hurt in the past because of my ways.
I'm sorry to Jenny.
I'm sorry to Jessy.
I'm sorry to Angel.
I'm sorry to Ryan.
I'm sorry to Justin.
I'm sorry to Britney.
I'm sorry to everyone.
I'm just... sorry.