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Ah!
Good afternoon dear Journal!
so whats up..?
Parents still being annoying..
and this is the new news..
Mark has a girl/date friend..
he is dating her..which soon will be his girlfriend no doubt about it..
It really pisses me off..but im not sure why..at all! Like i really don't have any feelings for mark anymore..but..he is always limited when he has a girlfriend..That sounds horrable..but Like..we can't be all cuddly anymore cause he will be like.."can't be up to that.."
And i really don't feel like he is ready to be in a relationship again..I know..Its not me..and i shouldnt even care..but..
Mark has been jumping from girl to girl latley..he says he hasnt been..but he has..*shakes head*
Its horrable..I care the world for mark..more then anything..
I want nothing but the best for that boy..
and i get nothing in return..I try so hard..and i would honistly..do ANYTHING for him..can u imagine..Anything for a guy that treated you like shit..for two mths..and broke your heart..and then realized what a fucking jerk he was..and turned around and changed his ways..and all through that no matter what happend...I was ALWAYS there for him..
Im never gonna stop being there for him..
But..I just wish i could gain more then a I Love you and a Ear when i need it..
*sigh*
Oh my..
I just realized something...Robert I think is the only person..if he even reads this..that reads this.. Oh my..*waves* Hey Robert!..im sorry you get to hear the non censored version of my life..lol this is the journal i pore myself on to..that nobody knows about
anyways..
That was a nice little rant..i feel better
TraceR
Good afternoon dear Journal!
so whats up..?
Parents still being annoying..
and this is the new news..
Mark has a girl/date friend..
he is dating her..which soon will be his girlfriend no doubt about it..
It really pisses me off..but im not sure why..at all! Like i really don't have any feelings for mark anymore..but..he is always limited when he has a girlfriend..That sounds horrable..but Like..we can't be all cuddly anymore cause he will be like.."can't be up to that.."
And i really don't feel like he is ready to be in a relationship again..I know..Its not me..and i shouldnt even care..but..
Mark has been jumping from girl to girl latley..he says he hasnt been..but he has..*shakes head*
Its horrable..I care the world for mark..more then anything..
I want nothing but the best for that boy..
and i get nothing in return..I try so hard..and i would honistly..do ANYTHING for him..can u imagine..Anything for a guy that treated you like shit..for two mths..and broke your heart..and then realized what a fucking jerk he was..and turned around and changed his ways..and all through that no matter what happend...I was ALWAYS there for him..
Im never gonna stop being there for him..
But..I just wish i could gain more then a I Love you and a Ear when i need it..
*sigh*
Oh my..
I just realized something...Robert I think is the only person..if he even reads this..that reads this.. Oh my..*waves* Hey Robert!..im sorry you get to hear the non censored version of my life..lol this is the journal i pore myself on to..that nobody knows about
anyways..
That was a nice little rant..i feel better
TraceR