Sep 16, 2008 23:20
Every reason you give is an excuse to do what you want and try to make it sound reasonable or okay. It's not reasonable. It's not okay. It's not right. NO 'REASON' or EXCUSE can justify this.
I hope that one day you will look back on this and realize your mistake. I hope you will want her friendship again and I hope she'll tell you where to go. You don't deserve a friend like her.
You are to blame for this mess. You. You want to blame her, but it's you. Think about it. What did YOU do? What did you DO? WHAT did you do?
What did she do, really? Really? And who is in control of your happiness? Who should have done something about that long ago? And you have the gall to keep lashing out at her--you who have inflicted so much pain. It makes no difference if you wanted to hurt her or not. You continue to do it anyway. WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HURT HER--YOU HURT HER AND HER (and her and her and her) JUST THE SAME? Obviously your other wants were higher priorities than your want to avoid hurting someone. Still, you hold up your lowest priority so that you can look noble somehow?
Such a hypocrite to speak against discrimination while discriminating in your own heart. How can you look at yourself without laughing? You are laughable. You pathetic, cruel fool.
Yes, I'm angry. Wouldn't you be were it your friend in her situation? Don't I have a right to my own emotions--to express them? Doesn't she?
Go on, tell yourself some more lies so that you can look yourself in the mirror and not cringe with disgust. The lies may work on you, not us.