May 05, 2012 20:03
Everybodys telling me that i shouldn't bother because i can do so much better and prettier and nicer et cetera, but i don't want better, i want what i want... even if i don't want to want it. It's not a choice, and i hate that i can't control my own mind.
I've stopped taking seroquel.... metabolism is speeding up again.... losing weight fast finally.... I'm addicted to chewable zinc tablets........the new generation of decklings are cute and remind me of how we used to be .... what with the squelling and the bouncing and the constant FUCKING zim quotes *crazy eyes*.... the kinders have so much energy..... now i just sit thier with friends and be the elitist lethargic fucker in the corner
I can't fucking help it.... i will stop.... lie to yourself long enough and you start to believe it....right? FUCK !