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Update time then :)
I've been in such a weird mood lately, sorry to any of you i've offended or anything!
I failed my first exam yesterday, ah well! I'm feeling quite contemplative now! I was so close to telling my boss to stick her job up her stupid power mad arse last night! I was feeling physically ill but i had to carry on working! I'm just too nice for my own good sometimes! After crying for ages i spoke to lellie for ages and felt alot better.
I didn't go see antihero on wednesday, due to my weird moodness! I went to watch the champions league final instead, i'm surprised i don't regret this now, i love antihero, i'm just fed up of going to gigs and feeling awkward either by myself or hanging round with people i don't really know! I miss having friends to go to gigs with, i love going to gigs with alex or lellie, i have no one like that here though :(
I can't wait til next tuesday when my exams are over, it will be such a relief, I'll get to go home for the summer and i can relax, and not have to worry about uni, not until resits anyway :'( I wish I'd been conciencious this year, and gone to some of my lectures, i'd be in a much better position now and I wouldn't be worried about failing!
4 Exams left!
I don't know what to do in the summer! Shas invited me to go to cyprus, but i really don't want to go on a beach holiday, i felt really bad saying that, i'd love to go on holiday with her, but it'd be so boring just sunbathing all day and drinking all night! I really want to go somewhere where i can be alone with lellie for weeks and weeks! Any offers of a free cottage or something would be much appreciated ;)
It's so hot in london right now, I wish i was at the beach near home, not sunbathing :p but running about on the dunes and playing football and swimming in the cold north sea, and having a big BBQ with ribs and chicken and sausages and burgers and a big salad! Mmm!
Hopefully this summer shall be good, i have a flexible job that i can do anywhere i am, and i have lots of time and money to spend with lellie!
Oh! This job? I haven't told you, hehe! I'm a text slut! I sit at my computer and get paid £5ph to send text messages to sad lonely old men! They all think i'm various sexy girls, when i'm infact a fat ugly boy! Teehee! It costs them £1 per text too! I should feel really bad about exploiting them, some of them have spent over £10,000 on the service in the past 2 years, which is absolutely ludicrous!
I'm listening to the libertines, I've been listening to lots of cool music lately, like baxendale and melys! I've also been listening lots to the faint on a lovely white vinyl, it sounds so good on my nice hifi! :)
I see you work at night, are you sexually amused? What's it like to have a room of guys encircling you? How she moves, how she walks. They all patiently await while the heat from in their pockets could burn marks into their legs. Without your needs and your support she'd have a job the same as ours - nothing daring. Would she miss a job that's sexual? In every city there are dozens of these clubs where men can go. Some people need a little challenge to their fantasies at home. There's a little tiny number on a fold of matches, the ink drips from a little dancer's pen. Everybody wants that fold of matches to reinflate their confidence. Hey, it is a job, it pays a lot. Is it disservicing someone? And is it good to get these men worked up so sexual? Older dancers gag at what new talent seems to mean. Smaller tits and younger limbs can cause a fit of rivalry.
Fantastical!
I wish i could see them again, and i wish there were more bands like them!
I really need some new music! I'm in the process of inventing a new me again! I was so surprised when lauren said she was shocked that i was watching the football, she said i was too feminine! When i first told my friends at home they said i was the most heterosexual person they knew and were so shocked by bi-ness! Ah well, i suppose i can be hetero now I have a girlfriend that will be there forever :)
In the summer i am going to lose weight and cut and dye my hair! I'll cut it shorter and bleach it then dye it bright bright red! It shall be so funky! :) I shall get some new glasses too, and prolly contact lenses again! I shall spend lots of money on cool clothes too, and try to be a really funky redhairedsk8erindieboyofwonder, i think that's how i'd descirbe myself ;) Might get something pierced too! Wooyah!
Anyway! That's enough for now! If you've read all this you deserve a cookie ;)
xx
I've been in such a weird mood lately, sorry to any of you i've offended or anything!
I failed my first exam yesterday, ah well! I'm feeling quite contemplative now! I was so close to telling my boss to stick her job up her stupid power mad arse last night! I was feeling physically ill but i had to carry on working! I'm just too nice for my own good sometimes! After crying for ages i spoke to lellie for ages and felt alot better.
I didn't go see antihero on wednesday, due to my weird moodness! I went to watch the champions league final instead, i'm surprised i don't regret this now, i love antihero, i'm just fed up of going to gigs and feeling awkward either by myself or hanging round with people i don't really know! I miss having friends to go to gigs with, i love going to gigs with alex or lellie, i have no one like that here though :(
I can't wait til next tuesday when my exams are over, it will be such a relief, I'll get to go home for the summer and i can relax, and not have to worry about uni, not until resits anyway :'( I wish I'd been conciencious this year, and gone to some of my lectures, i'd be in a much better position now and I wouldn't be worried about failing!
4 Exams left!
I don't know what to do in the summer! Shas invited me to go to cyprus, but i really don't want to go on a beach holiday, i felt really bad saying that, i'd love to go on holiday with her, but it'd be so boring just sunbathing all day and drinking all night! I really want to go somewhere where i can be alone with lellie for weeks and weeks! Any offers of a free cottage or something would be much appreciated ;)
It's so hot in london right now, I wish i was at the beach near home, not sunbathing :p but running about on the dunes and playing football and swimming in the cold north sea, and having a big BBQ with ribs and chicken and sausages and burgers and a big salad! Mmm!
Hopefully this summer shall be good, i have a flexible job that i can do anywhere i am, and i have lots of time and money to spend with lellie!
Oh! This job? I haven't told you, hehe! I'm a text slut! I sit at my computer and get paid £5ph to send text messages to sad lonely old men! They all think i'm various sexy girls, when i'm infact a fat ugly boy! Teehee! It costs them £1 per text too! I should feel really bad about exploiting them, some of them have spent over £10,000 on the service in the past 2 years, which is absolutely ludicrous!
I'm listening to the libertines, I've been listening to lots of cool music lately, like baxendale and melys! I've also been listening lots to the faint on a lovely white vinyl, it sounds so good on my nice hifi! :)
I see you work at night, are you sexually amused? What's it like to have a room of guys encircling you? How she moves, how she walks. They all patiently await while the heat from in their pockets could burn marks into their legs. Without your needs and your support she'd have a job the same as ours - nothing daring. Would she miss a job that's sexual? In every city there are dozens of these clubs where men can go. Some people need a little challenge to their fantasies at home. There's a little tiny number on a fold of matches, the ink drips from a little dancer's pen. Everybody wants that fold of matches to reinflate their confidence. Hey, it is a job, it pays a lot. Is it disservicing someone? And is it good to get these men worked up so sexual? Older dancers gag at what new talent seems to mean. Smaller tits and younger limbs can cause a fit of rivalry.
Fantastical!
I wish i could see them again, and i wish there were more bands like them!
I really need some new music! I'm in the process of inventing a new me again! I was so surprised when lauren said she was shocked that i was watching the football, she said i was too feminine! When i first told my friends at home they said i was the most heterosexual person they knew and were so shocked by bi-ness! Ah well, i suppose i can be hetero now I have a girlfriend that will be there forever :)
In the summer i am going to lose weight and cut and dye my hair! I'll cut it shorter and bleach it then dye it bright bright red! It shall be so funky! :) I shall get some new glasses too, and prolly contact lenses again! I shall spend lots of money on cool clothes too, and try to be a really funky redhairedsk8erindieboyofwonder, i think that's how i'd descirbe myself ;) Might get something pierced too! Wooyah!
Anyway! That's enough for now! If you've read all this you deserve a cookie ;)
xx