I have a constant fear that somethings always near

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yeah, so its been over a week since last entry? my bad... ive done a LOT of talking with jess lately, and something really bad happened that will be brought up later happened, thats why... lets see... start tuesday? school, then work... wednesday... school, lil peach, spencer's, talked to jess a lot... thursday... school, work... friday... decent day... talked to jess throughout the day, we were supposed to hang out, but it didnt work out right, she ended up having to babysit, then sleeping over her friend kate's because kate's boyfriend had broken up with her earlier that day... so after school i had to find something to do, around 5, i went to FYE, saw doig, talked to him for a while, then dana, nick doig, and random kid showed up, they were like "Henshaw, come see a movie with us" to which i replied "meh" eventually i decided to go, movie sucked, then we went driving around, eventually ended up at some beverly dance, where we sat for about half an hour blasting classical music... then we went to doigs, then i drove dana and random kid home... work next day i found out that i could have gone to a metal show, oh well, then after, i picked joey up, and we went to the mall... found doig at work, talked to him for a bit, went with him on his break, then found wil, newman, and random ugly blonde named katie wilson that joey likes... we then drove off, and i noticed paul go by me as i was taking a right, so i started following him as joey called him, then we pulled into the bhs parking lot, and for some reason, my car completely cleared out except for newman, because she wanted a ride to the mall to call her mom from there for some reason... so i gave her one, then i called jess because she wanted me to, then met up with the whole group at some pizza place, then we ditched joey with random ugly blonde, so paul could go get gas, and we thought it would be funny to all just leave them... then after paul got gas, we picked them up... then we went to the beach... it was really awkward at this point, because jess called again, and i was like "yep... im going to the beach... yep... ashley is still in the car... yep... she's the only one here"... then we went to the beach, then i dropped ashley off at the mall, with wil in the car, because he was exiled from the paul car, then we went back the beach, then followed paul for a bit, then realized he was a moron, as he made a wrong turn going to wil's then i went home, called jess... she was upset with me about the whole being with ashley thing, almost broke up, managed to talk her down... sunday, quite possibly the worst day of my life up to this point... sumation: woke up, picked up bed at grandparents, brought it home, went to dana's, picked him up, picked up random kid, then to doig's found out he was at guitar center, booked it there, found him, hung out at guitar center for a while, then we raced back to doig's house, i won by a huge margin, then did random stuff, sometime during this period of time my mom found a pipe in my room, and jess was in a near a mood where she thinks about how the relationship wont work... so i came home at 8, to pissed off parents, who now want me to go to councilling, and had to fight pretty hard to save my girlfriend... doesnt sound too bad, but trust me, it was brutal... monday and tuesday were normal, and i was like depressed, wednesday i spent all day talking to jess because she skipped school, and i had a snow day, thursday was normal, friday sucked, went to bed at 8, talked to jess at like 1:30 in the morning for some weird reason, then yesterday... ah... yesterday... well, got up, went to work, usual routine, nothing really happened for a while... then joey dropped a rem on me, crushing my right side... that was a tad painful... then the coolest guy ever came into the store... he walked in, and joey and i were flipping a pile, and this guy walks by me, hes about late 20s, and complete wigger... i go "joey" joey looks at me, i nod my head in the direction of the guy, and joey just smiles, then he walks by joey, and to the other side of the showroom, and joey goes "and the best part is hes wearing enough cologne to knock out a horse" then my mom starts helping him, and he starts talking about his house, which supposedly has tons of persian rugs and emeralds, etc. so joey and i start discussing how we think this guy has money, because he obviously is not a business man... my two guesses were drug dealer, and born rich... joeys were drug dealer or some sort of sports figure we dont know... then somehow joey and i started helping the guy, and he was on his nextel, and he apparently had to leave in five minutes to "drop off a check to his buddy, who wants cash... hes a subcontractor who does work for me from time to time" joey and i just look at each other, and can tell we're both laughing... then my mom asks him what exactly he does, and he replies "I own a trucking company" followed a little while later by "and a detailing shop" followed by "and i own an internet dog clothes business called goochie poochie" so basically, the guy has just told us: a) he has to pay a subcontractor b) owns a trucking company c) runs an online company which is EXTREMELY easy to launder money... there can only be one assumption i, or anyone can make from this, and it is:
DRUG DEALER
yeah, so then i finished work, then came home, watched independence day with my mom, then called jess, she was in another thinking mood... luckily i was able to talk her down again after 4 hours... then i just talked to her for another 2... went to bed about 2:30... fell asleep a while later, woke up, ate breakfast, talked to jess, took a shower, came online, wrote all this, talking to jess... peace