lj-cut is a big fat bitch
For some reason, and I have no idea why, LJ-cuts will never let me post a sentence of text. It cuts it all off except the first word, i.e. had it said "Sometimes When I'm Alone I Sing Loudly" it would have appeared as "Sometimes."
...
Thanks, LJ.
Anyway...
First...
Some thoughts on the school year.
Somehow, first semester seemed a lot more....tolerable. I don't know if it's just the classes have lost their "luster" or people I don't like moving into my classes this semester, but I'm really not enjoying this semester. Here are some possible reasons:
+New People I've Met Are Wearing Thin--clearly no one who reads this....particularly since I've known most of you for quite a while. I don't know if it's over-exposure or my "Glass Syndrome" taking over. I'm just not clicking with the "newbies," if you will, anymore.
+Suddenly Everyone's "Politically Active"--I don't like discussing politics with people as it is, because my views generally differ from everyone's I know, and it would be pretty stupid if I got in a serious argument with my friends because of something like that. Plus everyone seems to think their political views are this novel thing that no one else believes, making them "oh so different." Ugh.
+I Don't Seem To Be Shutting Up At All This Year--I'm outright awful at making new friends and meeting new people. And I'm REALLY inarticulate, not to mention the chronic verbal diarhhea. Yet still, for some reason, I don't seem to be shutting up at all this year, so it's one humiliation after another. It's pretty funny, though, for the record.
+Sodas--Coke C2 tastes really weird and why is it called "Pepsi Si"?
Well...the last one doesn't really count.
Second....
I don't eat a whole lot. And when I do, it's small portions and not usually overly unhealthy. Either way it's more healthy than how a lot of people much thinner than I am eat.
I'm not...shall we say, "overly thin." I'm what most people would call fat--which, if you have ever actually been fat, is a particularly unfavourable thing to type. It's not an easy thing to deal with at all. If you're pretty and fat, you still won't get cut any slack, if you're ugly and fat[i.e. your's truly] you...well, you're screwed. Even ugly thin girls have backdoor sex [hahaha.....].
People don't understand how difficult it is to be a Fat Girl. I'm constantly surrounded by people calling themselves fat and trying to loose weight because they're "too fat." These aren't generally people who are overweight, either, in fact it's usually people who are UNDERweight. What do you say in that situation? There's a sort of "girl code" that dictates you make another girl feel better whenever she puts herself down. But if you're actually fat and you say "God, I'm so fat," well....you don't get a large chiming chorus of "oh, no you're not!" You're more likely to get a blank stare and an uncomfortable silence, or "well, you probably just don't work out enough" or "then loose some weight."
I have, over the course of my entire high school "career," tried several variant methods of weight loss. I've exercised like crazy, I've eaten salads for every meal, I've Atkins'd, I've South Beach-ed, I've pilated, I've yoga-d, I've danced, and I've starved myself and I'm willing to bet money that I've actually gained weight over these past few years.
It's not my face. It's got nothing to do with that. I hate my face as much as any other girl, I think I'm as hideous as any other girl does. But I wouldn't mind being horribley malformed for life with no hope of change at all if I were thin.
Trust me. Try being fat for a while. It's a living hell. I'm a freakin' girl anachronism waiting for "Rubenesque" women to become fashionable again.
...
Thanks, LJ.
Anyway...
First...
Some thoughts on the school year.
Somehow, first semester seemed a lot more....tolerable. I don't know if it's just the classes have lost their "luster" or people I don't like moving into my classes this semester, but I'm really not enjoying this semester. Here are some possible reasons:
+New People I've Met Are Wearing Thin--clearly no one who reads this....particularly since I've known most of you for quite a while. I don't know if it's over-exposure or my "Glass Syndrome" taking over. I'm just not clicking with the "newbies," if you will, anymore.
+Suddenly Everyone's "Politically Active"--I don't like discussing politics with people as it is, because my views generally differ from everyone's I know, and it would be pretty stupid if I got in a serious argument with my friends because of something like that. Plus everyone seems to think their political views are this novel thing that no one else believes, making them "oh so different." Ugh.
+I Don't Seem To Be Shutting Up At All This Year--I'm outright awful at making new friends and meeting new people. And I'm REALLY inarticulate, not to mention the chronic verbal diarhhea. Yet still, for some reason, I don't seem to be shutting up at all this year, so it's one humiliation after another. It's pretty funny, though, for the record.
+Sodas--Coke C2 tastes really weird and why is it called "Pepsi Si"?
Well...the last one doesn't really count.
Second....
I don't eat a whole lot. And when I do, it's small portions and not usually overly unhealthy. Either way it's more healthy than how a lot of people much thinner than I am eat.
I'm not...shall we say, "overly thin." I'm what most people would call fat--which, if you have ever actually been fat, is a particularly unfavourable thing to type. It's not an easy thing to deal with at all. If you're pretty and fat, you still won't get cut any slack, if you're ugly and fat[i.e. your's truly] you...well, you're screwed. Even ugly thin girls have backdoor sex [hahaha.....].
People don't understand how difficult it is to be a Fat Girl. I'm constantly surrounded by people calling themselves fat and trying to loose weight because they're "too fat." These aren't generally people who are overweight, either, in fact it's usually people who are UNDERweight. What do you say in that situation? There's a sort of "girl code" that dictates you make another girl feel better whenever she puts herself down. But if you're actually fat and you say "God, I'm so fat," well....you don't get a large chiming chorus of "oh, no you're not!" You're more likely to get a blank stare and an uncomfortable silence, or "well, you probably just don't work out enough" or "then loose some weight."
I have, over the course of my entire high school "career," tried several variant methods of weight loss. I've exercised like crazy, I've eaten salads for every meal, I've Atkins'd, I've South Beach-ed, I've pilated, I've yoga-d, I've danced, and I've starved myself and I'm willing to bet money that I've actually gained weight over these past few years.
It's not my face. It's got nothing to do with that. I hate my face as much as any other girl, I think I'm as hideous as any other girl does. But I wouldn't mind being horribley malformed for life with no hope of change at all if I were thin.
Trust me. Try being fat for a while. It's a living hell. I'm a freakin' girl anachronism waiting for "Rubenesque" women to become fashionable again.