I hate this.
Its going on 9 hours since i broke up with Jupe, and i hate how i feel. I look around my room and see so many things that make me think of him. I have a small index card that he did doodles for me that i stop and look at every time i walk by my mirror. There is a shot glass that i bought him with a peso coin in it, sitting on top of the matrix box set. Every time i see them i start crying again :|
I hate that i broke up with him, but i think it was the right thing, Even so, i wish i could take it all back. I had hoped that he would have tried fighting for me, even a little bit.
Jupe was the best thing that could have happened to me, i learned quite a bit about myself, and he helped me with so many things. At the very least i hope i can be his friend one day, I know a part of me is always going to hope for a second chance. Just one more try to make things work. Maybe that chance will happen, maybe it won't, it wouldnt' be fair to myself or him to hover and wait.
I'm scared of seeing him at Village Inn, how do i act? what do i say? Will i be strong enough to be there, or am i going to have to leave, so i don't cause a scene.
I know that there is always going to be a part of me that loves him dearly, i hope i have a place in his heart too. I would give anythign for a hug right now..... i'm going to bed.
I hate that i broke up with him, but i think it was the right thing, Even so, i wish i could take it all back. I had hoped that he would have tried fighting for me, even a little bit.
Jupe was the best thing that could have happened to me, i learned quite a bit about myself, and he helped me with so many things. At the very least i hope i can be his friend one day, I know a part of me is always going to hope for a second chance. Just one more try to make things work. Maybe that chance will happen, maybe it won't, it wouldnt' be fair to myself or him to hover and wait.
I'm scared of seeing him at Village Inn, how do i act? what do i say? Will i be strong enough to be there, or am i going to have to leave, so i don't cause a scene.
I know that there is always going to be a part of me that loves him dearly, i hope i have a place in his heart too. I would give anythign for a hug right now..... i'm going to bed.