i can't get no satisf-action
so, how do people achieve this satisfaction thing i keep hearing about? the real question being, of course, how can i?
my mom's said it all my life: theresa, you will never be happy with what you have; you will always look at what you don't. so, is that true, or did she set me up for some self-fulfilling prophecy? because either way, it's true. i always focus on the thing which i do not yet have and never ever let myself enjoy the things i do.
and it's this pattern of going after something specific, getting it (okay, not always, but often enough), and immediately pushing on to a full-time quest for something else. i forgot-- immediately upon obtaining/achieving the original object(ive), i'm exceedingly happy for, oh, about six minutes. then i go back to yearning and questing.
when will the madness end?? i demand to know. scary thing is (and i keep coming back to this quandary), i think i am the one in charge, and yet i do not give myself answers. and i sure as hell don't make it easy on myself...
my mom's said it all my life: theresa, you will never be happy with what you have; you will always look at what you don't. so, is that true, or did she set me up for some self-fulfilling prophecy? because either way, it's true. i always focus on the thing which i do not yet have and never ever let myself enjoy the things i do.
and it's this pattern of going after something specific, getting it (okay, not always, but often enough), and immediately pushing on to a full-time quest for something else. i forgot-- immediately upon obtaining/achieving the original object(ive), i'm exceedingly happy for, oh, about six minutes. then i go back to yearning and questing.
when will the madness end?? i demand to know. scary thing is (and i keep coming back to this quandary), i think i am the one in charge, and yet i do not give myself answers. and i sure as hell don't make it easy on myself...