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you know how, when something bad happens, one instinct is to shut everything down? you think, well, there's no way i can go on as i normally would, so instead i will do nothing at all. and everyone will say, that's not the way to deal with it; you have to get on with life. but it's never that simple.
right now i have all of these petty little worries that i had yesterday, and somehow i just can't say, okay, i'll go back to my petty little worries now, because life goes on. it just doesn't work that way. now, on top of all of the petty little worries-- actually, in place of them-- i have one giant, looming worry. one giant, looming sadness. and to get on with life as usual seems like the most callous thing any of us could possibly do.
this is a good example of the degrees of separation phenomenon. everyone was affected by this in an abstract way, but i think that in a very specific way, everyone was also affected by it to some degree. you know someone who was there, or you know someone who knows someone. or you're separated by three degrees. seriously, i wonder if it even goes much further beyond that. the world just feels so small today. and the last thing i can do right now is turn my attention back to my small life.
right now i have all of these petty little worries that i had yesterday, and somehow i just can't say, okay, i'll go back to my petty little worries now, because life goes on. it just doesn't work that way. now, on top of all of the petty little worries-- actually, in place of them-- i have one giant, looming worry. one giant, looming sadness. and to get on with life as usual seems like the most callous thing any of us could possibly do.
this is a good example of the degrees of separation phenomenon. everyone was affected by this in an abstract way, but i think that in a very specific way, everyone was also affected by it to some degree. you know someone who was there, or you know someone who knows someone. or you're separated by three degrees. seriously, i wonder if it even goes much further beyond that. the world just feels so small today. and the last thing i can do right now is turn my attention back to my small life.