..Thoughts...

[toylove]

this whole week wasnt sucha good week btwn me and larry. We never talked.. and when we did it was for like 2 minutes. so it preety much sucked.. wednesday nite he was super tired so i was the little understanding person that i am and i told him to go to sleep.. that we could talk on thursday.. so he was like ok cool.. he was like "oh i i'll wake up super late tom. like at 3.. so that we can talk for a long time tom. nite." so i was like straiiiight.. but then thursday nite rolls around.. and he calls me like at 11:00 and overhear from a convo. he had with his friend (that he put me on hold for) that he was going to a frat party at fiu.. so i was like ok - thats nice- :x... i was soo pissed. ugh. like rite now it might sound very selfish.. but if the kid tells me im gonna talk to you tonite cause i havent all week.. then stick to your word you know? w.e. bro. so then i obviously hung up with him very fast like 15 min. later.. and i was all pissed.. and i think i even hung up on him.. im not sure- w.e. doesnt matter. so later on that nite and all throughout friday i start to think about so much stuff dealing with him.
here are the thoughts:
-i dont think he has time rite now for a g.f
-i think i might be too young for him (altho its 1 yr. apart) but i prob. am... cause i might be stopping him from doing other stuff.. since my curfew is a lot more earlier than his
-i USE to believe him wen he would tell me that he really likes me.. but i guess now that ive been thinking all these thoughts i doubt he really means it.. hes prob. saying it cause he feels he has "un compromiso"

w.e. i have more thoughts i'll dish em out later