SHIT

[toy_man_dave]

i am so stressed out right now it's not even funny, i need a new job, my car is fucked then on top of that i have to go car searching and do all the stuff that entails, im losing money by the minute because i cant do the things i need to do because i dont have a car, i just want this to get solved, i have no money im going further and further into

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[heartshattering]

i can't even start to imagine how you are feeling right now. stressed doesn't even seem to dipict the slightest, most surface feeling that entails your life as of this moment. no one said though that growing up and moving out/school and all that comes with starting a new life for yourself would be easy. however, being prepared to do what needs to be done can never be taught...you have to deal with this and you HAVE to deal with it all NOW.

by moving out of your mom's house you are saying you are an adult..by drinking..by smoking..all that must mean you are ready to prove to others (and yourself) that you can take care of your own personal being. maybe all the parties and happy thoughts in your head are only pulling you further from reality. be productive..i'm not saying you aren't..but by wanting to hang out with friends, you are taking time from your own happiness-in the end..

take a look at the bigger picture. don't just see/feel/touch the world in front of you dave. start looking towards your future. yes, you know what you need to do. yes, you have thought about it all carefully..and yes you are worrying about it, which shows signs of SOME caring..but when are you going to start doing?

get your act together. be a grown up..be something that i will never be..

good luck dave.
keep me updated.

[heartshattering]

wow re-reading that i'm filled with this..failure feeling. there's so much that i want/need to say to you and about this whole situation and i dig deep inside to find the perfect words but it never comes out right.

i'm sorry if that last post made no sense, but if you felt what i felt writing that, and what i feel now..perhaps you'd actually understand what i'm trying so hard to say.

i want to bring you up..lift you to happiness, (as if it were possible..yeah right) but..i don't want to get your head in the clouds, as i feel it is now.
i feel you are surpressing some stress/sadness as a defence mechanism so that you can make it through all this strife..
i know you feel feelings towards this issue, but if i were you, i'd assume my life would be consisting of ONLY worrying about the car and job..and my future.
maybe i just have you all wrong. maybe analyzing all this in my head was unnessaccary..but all i know is i hope you get things straightened out.

i'm very concerned..really i am.