i see you, nightly.
I CAN BARELY SIT HERE AND WATCH THEM. IT'S FUCKING INFURIATING. THIS WHOLE FUCKING THING IS FUCKING INFURIATING BECAUSE EVERYONE IS STRESSED AND BEING FUCKING STUPID AND I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE.
[edit:] i'm lucky sometimes when i get like that there's only plastic butter knives in the campus center.
[edit again:] i need to learn to deal with the emotions i felt there above. crying helps. crying helps an awful lot. but it's very hard to get the emotion to escalate to crying from that weird empty angry feeling. i don't know. it's kind of crazy. i definitely don't know who i am anymore.
-MELISSA
[edit:] i'm lucky sometimes when i get like that there's only plastic butter knives in the campus center.
[edit again:] i need to learn to deal with the emotions i felt there above. crying helps. crying helps an awful lot. but it's very hard to get the emotion to escalate to crying from that weird empty angry feeling. i don't know. it's kind of crazy. i definitely don't know who i am anymore.
-MELISSA