I feel like shit. And that's just being nice about myself.
Major apologizes for not updating for over....TEN DAYS?! *Deflates*
T-ten days.. ;__; Ah who the hell cares.
SO--What happened during those ten days?
- I lost contact with my sister. Joy. (She's giving me her famous silent treatments. Fine, be that way.)
- I am failing Math like there's no tomorrow. More joy.
- I'm a lazy fat bastard who just lumps around doing nothing, literally, nothing in my life. Err, house for that matter.
- Bitten my nails to non-existence. There is more skin than nail and I could have sworn my pinkie bled in school cause I bit it too far.
- I've been told I have a Silver Heart and an Orange Heart as well.. (But I don't like orange much.. I prefer pink. Totally girly. stfukthxbai~ <3)
Basically, life's been shit for me--or at least I feel that way. And them thoughts aren't helping me either. I've been trying to find ways to vent writing incomplete stories and song lyrics. Half of them make no sense whatsoever. .__.;; Eeh.. And since my sister hasn't talked to me since Wednesday--I figured I'd give whomever gives a crap to tell the back story. Too keep it short, I was just angry at her because she told me to get a job, learn to drive, earn money, pay for bills, etc. and I was feeling overwhelmed and yelled at her that she should have already gotten married since she's 29 and all..I mean, my mother married at 25 ._.
I didn't mean it and then she just shut up and then called me a "stupid community college goer, a cockroach." and just went on being quiet. Guess she knows her own weakness and I hit bull's eyes? She doesn't want to talk to me? Fine. So be it.
Just today, my mom asked her "Hey, it's a nice weather--why don't you and your sister go for a walk?" but she responded as she got up, "I don't have a sister. Tch." and walked off.
....That's OK. I have...Or so I think, I hope even.. 3 other step-sisters.. Sort of. xD (They know who they are.. N-E-W-S!! 8D) Hell, I even have a great online and offline family of friends who, unless it's a clever illusion--seem to really care about me and my feelings. I'm glad to have them, they make me laugh even if I think I had a bad day at school or home. They're just great people to trust in. <3 them lots.
Kay, that's about it.. In ten days or less.. I gotta go back to my useless schoolwork--essays, projects, presentations, all that jazz... Next week is gonna be full of them for me.. x.x;;
Hopefully I'll find some time to sit down and update legitimately instead of trying to cramp more than a day into a single entry. :<
Ta-ta~!! <3
T-ten days.. ;__; Ah who the hell cares.
SO--What happened during those ten days?
- I lost contact with my sister. Joy. (She's giving me her famous silent treatments. Fine, be that way.)
- I am failing Math like there's no tomorrow. More joy.
- I'm a lazy fat bastard who just lumps around doing nothing, literally, nothing in my life. Err, house for that matter.
- Bitten my nails to non-existence. There is more skin than nail and I could have sworn my pinkie bled in school cause I bit it too far.
- I've been told I have a Silver Heart and an Orange Heart as well.. (But I don't like orange much.. I prefer pink. Totally girly. stfukthxbai~ <3)
Basically, life's been shit for me--or at least I feel that way. And them thoughts aren't helping me either. I've been trying to find ways to vent writing incomplete stories and song lyrics. Half of them make no sense whatsoever. .__.;; Eeh.. And since my sister hasn't talked to me since Wednesday--I figured I'd give whomever gives a crap to tell the back story. Too keep it short, I was just angry at her because she told me to get a job, learn to drive, earn money, pay for bills, etc. and I was feeling overwhelmed and yelled at her that she should have already gotten married since she's 29 and all..I mean, my mother married at 25 ._.
I didn't mean it and then she just shut up and then called me a "stupid community college goer, a cockroach." and just went on being quiet. Guess she knows her own weakness and I hit bull's eyes? She doesn't want to talk to me? Fine. So be it.
Just today, my mom asked her "Hey, it's a nice weather--why don't you and your sister go for a walk?" but she responded as she got up, "I don't have a sister. Tch." and walked off.
....That's OK. I have...Or so I think, I hope even.. 3 other step-sisters.. Sort of. xD (They know who they are.. N-E-W-S!! 8D) Hell, I even have a great online and offline family of friends who, unless it's a clever illusion--seem to really care about me and my feelings. I'm glad to have them, they make me laugh even if I think I had a bad day at school or home. They're just great people to trust in. <3 them lots.
Kay, that's about it.. In ten days or less.. I gotta go back to my useless schoolwork--essays, projects, presentations, all that jazz... Next week is gonna be full of them for me.. x.x;;
Hopefully I'll find some time to sit down and update legitimately instead of trying to cramp more than a day into a single entry. :<
Ta-ta~!! <3