Nov 05, 2004 00:15
I got my job at the Harmony Pub back. I'm so happy. The people are great and I love being around them. We cook awesome food and laugh all night, even when it's crunch time. Tonight was my first night back. I'm so happy. Billy and this latino guy each got me some sex on the beach. I'm buzzin good. I'm just really happy everyone was so glad to see me again. It's almost like I never left. And me and Dan are a cleaning force to be reckoned with. I left there because i wanted to make a difference (and more money) by putting roofs on peoples houses. And i was good at it. But i learned that it's not how much money you make or what you can do that means something to people. Good friends only want your presence. And everyone at the pub is good friends. Thats how i'm rising.
But i'm also falling. I'm falling for a girl. It's Melissa. She is so beautiful and she makes me feel good when i'm near her. I just cant stop thinking about her. Tuesday night I went to her house to study. And we did, but i couldn't concentrate. I just wanted to stare into her eyes and hold her close. All i want to do is be next to her and hold her. She makes me feel strong and weak at the same time. She gives me something to look forward to at school. I've never been whipped before, but if theres someone who can whip me, its her. When i look into her eyes i feel so happy to be alive. And when i dream about her i fear nothing. I think i'm going to go dream now... good bye people.