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Ever since school started back up I feel more full of energy. Energy that I do not have. I've been going to bed late everynight and getting up early. I'm exhausted but I can't seem to get myself to really relax. Yesterday when I got home from cleaning committee for our green room, I went into my room and put on some pajamas and layed down to watch tv. Not for a single minute did I sleep no matter how hard I tried. I ended up not getting to bed till almost 2:00 or 3:00. I lost track of time after 1:30. This morning I was just so tired and didn't want to get up, but I managed. Which is something I don't ever do. If I'm that tired I lay in bed till last minute. I've just been really hyper the past few days and I'm not running on enough sleep. It's like a car thats been on empty for about a few days, but still manages to run.
I also haven't ate much in the past few days. I think in the past few days, I've had a days worth of food. Not even that. It's not that I am trying to starve myself. I'm just not hungry. I think I am going to go on a diet. The kind where you only eat when you're really hungry and you eat just enough to keep yourself content. I wonder how long this will last.
Right now I'm so full of energy I just feel like cleaning and organizing. Earlier I was at my moms house because I had to go to my phyciatrist today and my grandma, mom and me were sitting there watching The Exorcism of Emily Rose, which with our ADD we didn't watch that much of it. But the whole time I just sat that angry because I was looking at the kitchen and the living room and I decided I want to decorate my moms house so bad. I think I've been watching too many of those designer shows lately.
I really feel like painting or something. I think tonight before I go to bed, I am going to draw my moms kitchen and living room and design it and show her when I go to her house this weekend. Maybe she will like my ideas and maybe we can redecorate the house. I think it would be fun.
So as of today I think I can start going over my moms house for the weekend. She has seemed to accept my moving better now. I still the get the sarcasim and comments about my moving out, but I ignore it. I like spending time with my mom, it's just hard because when she doesn't get her way she will make you miserable. This weekend we are celebrating my grandpa's birthday and then we are going to finish cleaning out my room. I still have tons of clothing and misc things over there.
infinite love,
chelsea
I also haven't ate much in the past few days. I think in the past few days, I've had a days worth of food. Not even that. It's not that I am trying to starve myself. I'm just not hungry. I think I am going to go on a diet. The kind where you only eat when you're really hungry and you eat just enough to keep yourself content. I wonder how long this will last.
Right now I'm so full of energy I just feel like cleaning and organizing. Earlier I was at my moms house because I had to go to my phyciatrist today and my grandma, mom and me were sitting there watching The Exorcism of Emily Rose, which with our ADD we didn't watch that much of it. But the whole time I just sat that angry because I was looking at the kitchen and the living room and I decided I want to decorate my moms house so bad. I think I've been watching too many of those designer shows lately.
I really feel like painting or something. I think tonight before I go to bed, I am going to draw my moms kitchen and living room and design it and show her when I go to her house this weekend. Maybe she will like my ideas and maybe we can redecorate the house. I think it would be fun.
So as of today I think I can start going over my moms house for the weekend. She has seemed to accept my moving better now. I still the get the sarcasim and comments about my moving out, but I ignore it. I like spending time with my mom, it's just hard because when she doesn't get her way she will make you miserable. This weekend we are celebrating my grandpa's birthday and then we are going to finish cleaning out my room. I still have tons of clothing and misc things over there.
infinite love,
chelsea