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hey everyone im so bored today! rebecca, my bestest friend in the whole world, hasn't written me from camp yet, two of my friends are in love with 16 year olds (!), and my other best friend in the whole world chelsey called me last night with ** tom** on the phone telling me they both read my journal. and if that isnt humiliating enough considering what i wrote about **tom** chelsey has to tell me that he in fact printed the whole entry out! he was like asking me questions and stuff that made me feel like an idiot for writing those things down and he made me want to strangle the best friend that i love oh so much for putting me in this position! what **tom** doesnt get is that when guys like me its usually for my looks so i guess u can say i have trust issues with certain ppl, typically i have trust issues with anyone who likes me as more then a friend.i regret what happened with me and **tom**, even the "i like u" part, becuz i think he only likes me becuz i kised him or wtvr. im not the kind of girl who duz that with meaningless guys who i dont even know but in this case i didnt kno **tom** so i was put in a weird position. if instead of the situation happening with **tom** and in his place someone i knew better, like **spongebob** or **dimples** or even WILLIAM ( te he so hott), i probly would have acted different because i kno them and i trust them more. in a way i dont regret what happened becuz i rly do have feelings for **tom** but now i think what i was feeling was a ditsy physical attraction which i had no intention of pursueing and now that the situation has become more then a " my friend thinks ur hott" type thing im not sure what to excpect or believe. also i think i like this kid that chelsey knows named chris. apparently he has a girlfriend and everything but still i like him. chelsey does too which is just my luck, another **spongebob** situation. but i cnt help it hes incredably sweet and he makes me laugh a lot. ive never even been formally introduced to him but its nice that i can talk to him and not have to worry about what he thinks of me, becuz he duznt know me. i can act like my true self for once and not have to explain a thing becuz for all he knows i act the way i realy am around everyone. and omg is he gorgeuos! i kno i spelt that wrong. but neway ppl i have to be going hopefully chelsey shows **tom** the important parts of this entry that way he knws a little bit more about why i act the way i act