i've been staring at the photographs you left behind, wondering why not one captures the truth...
she is jumping into our jokes, joining the conversations, trying to selfishly write herself into our lives! defying what we know, what we learned, when truthfully she is nearly invisable, only stared at and silently questioned. her motives arn't clear even to me and i seem to hold all the answers, but i don't. i sit back day after day brushing past her, nodding when she speaks but watching as she is never spoken too. you would think that i would make a place for her seeing as i am portrayed as the common ground, someone that can always be used as the link to one another. i had made a place for her though, she just chose to rebel against the rules i set out and once again mold her personality so that she can start over, start fresh. but what she doesn't notice is that her charade does nothing for her charactor and even possibly builds down mine. the trouble is that she is so blind to the facts that have been swirling through everyones mind that she is only making things worse. one would think i, being the nice person that i am, would show her the flaws in her plan, but apparently one would think wrong becuase the only words running through my thought track are
I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE STAYED AWAY
so today at school was a typical day u kno see friends blah blah go to class blah blah eat luch blah blah then go to other classes. just another boring day. although i love seeing all of my friends, i still would much rather be hanging out alone with rebecca and creating our own logic, or tanning in the grass with chelsey and talking about boys, or floating in the ocean in naples, and id kill to be once again shopping like crazy in new york . i miss summer and everything that came alone with it, seeing everyone over and over again isnt helping either, the more i see my friends the more distant i feel. its like during summer all i kept on saying was how much i miss all of my friends, and now that i see them, all i miss is summer. rebecca knows what i mean, every conversation we have one of us always says those three small words that seem to exsist in the world that we long to be in. summer, it sounds so simple and perfect, no complications. the time where we can all lay back and watch the world spin without us. we have a chance to redeem ourselves, change what we spent all lst year hating. live summer up to its full potential because once its done with, you'll only have memories, and some you may not want to remember
i miss summer,
arielle