so it's been awhile
many things have changed since i last wrote in this thing. people have changed, time has passed and i too have changed. i think turning 19 means it's about time u get your shit togther.. but that's as of yet to happen. i'm not quite sure where the road ahead is leading or even the road in front of me so i am just trying to figure out where it is that i wanna go. life can't be all about fucking getting drunk and partying, shit gets messed up real fucking fast when u do that. anyway, im not quite sure what i am trying to say or better yet trying to prove. just basically in a time of finding things out and making the best of the situations i am in.