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Sometimes you get answers to questions that aren't the answers you wanted, but they may be the answers you need
So for the...two or three people who still read this, I've been thinking a lot. and I think I'm ready to tell a story
Several weeks ago I had a conversation with my friends about broken noses, and came to the conclusion that Ii would ask my mom how she broke her nose, because such stories are incredibly interesting.
mom swiftly changed the subject with cunning awkwardness and pain in her eyes. I knew something was wrong. So I got my suspicions, though I wasn't sure. then on easter sunday she woke up crying and told me that my dad had broken her nose. I think I'd always known or at least suspected. I think he was an alcoholic, and the abusive nature makes my theory make sense.
The next night I kept waking up from bad memories. I've always needed to know why my father left me. and now I think I know why. He did chose to leave, he was cut off. they didn't want him to do to me what he did to my mom.
I think they may have been too late, I remember things I can't even say, can't even put into words. But i know that he is a monster and I'm better off without him. Still it hurts in a completely different way.
So for the...two or three people who still read this, I've been thinking a lot. and I think I'm ready to tell a story
Several weeks ago I had a conversation with my friends about broken noses, and came to the conclusion that Ii would ask my mom how she broke her nose, because such stories are incredibly interesting.
mom swiftly changed the subject with cunning awkwardness and pain in her eyes. I knew something was wrong. So I got my suspicions, though I wasn't sure. then on easter sunday she woke up crying and told me that my dad had broken her nose. I think I'd always known or at least suspected. I think he was an alcoholic, and the abusive nature makes my theory make sense.
The next night I kept waking up from bad memories. I've always needed to know why my father left me. and now I think I know why. He did chose to leave, he was cut off. they didn't want him to do to me what he did to my mom.
I think they may have been too late, I remember things I can't even say, can't even put into words. But i know that he is a monster and I'm better off without him. Still it hurts in a completely different way.