its not always rainbows and butterflys
wow i realized that it's been a long ass time since i updated this shit. i got back from atlantic/ocean city yesterday. me and cheryl had an amazing time on friday esspecially. we met 2 awesome guys justin and tory. we hung out with them the whole day till like 2 in the morning cuz my parents were at the casino. nothing happened with us and them cuz i kno whoevers reading this is like omg but they knew we had boyfriends. we're hoping we can see them again eventually.
i dont know whats going on with my life anymore. i am so confused on what i want. i love josh and he knows it i just dont feel like i love him enough. and what sucks is that i know hes perfect in every way, just somehow i'm not satisfied with myself. something made me realize that i think i might be wrong and i just feel so bad hurting josh. so i just dont know what to do cuz i wanna be with him, just something tells me i shouldn't. i'm so jumbled and confused i just hope i get things straight soon otherwise i think i'm gonna go crazy.
last night i went to cheryls at like 1115 when i got home from josh's cuz we were gonna talk to justin and tory and i ended up sleeping over. today i went to amandas. me amanda and robbie just couldnt figure out anything to do today. i left kinda early cuz i was soo tired. i still am i just cant sleep during the day but i kinda felt like being home. i've been thinking about this whole situation i have with josh and i'm still not finding a conclusion, i just really wanna be with him for some reason hes the only person i wanna see right now. i asked tay today to hang out with me josh and tom on tuesday and she said yes. i'm happy now.
i guess i spilled my heart out to the world enough for one day i'll update sooner or later.
i dont know whats going on with my life anymore. i am so confused on what i want. i love josh and he knows it i just dont feel like i love him enough. and what sucks is that i know hes perfect in every way, just somehow i'm not satisfied with myself. something made me realize that i think i might be wrong and i just feel so bad hurting josh. so i just dont know what to do cuz i wanna be with him, just something tells me i shouldn't. i'm so jumbled and confused i just hope i get things straight soon otherwise i think i'm gonna go crazy.
last night i went to cheryls at like 1115 when i got home from josh's cuz we were gonna talk to justin and tory and i ended up sleeping over. today i went to amandas. me amanda and robbie just couldnt figure out anything to do today. i left kinda early cuz i was soo tired. i still am i just cant sleep during the day but i kinda felt like being home. i've been thinking about this whole situation i have with josh and i'm still not finding a conclusion, i just really wanna be with him for some reason hes the only person i wanna see right now. i asked tay today to hang out with me josh and tom on tuesday and she said yes. i'm happy now.
i guess i spilled my heart out to the world enough for one day i'll update sooner or later.