Hm..
I really don't have a whole lot to say right at the moment but I am really bored and have nothing else to do with my time at the current moment.
Well, it's not true that I don't really have a lot to say, it's just that what I would really like to talk about I'm kind of not allowed to, even now. And it's driving me crazy. Only one other person knows anything about the situation and I don't know if she's at work right now or at home so I figured that I would just call her after tutoring was over to talk to her about it instead of getting myself into more trouble by saying things in here when I probably shouldn't. Things just haven't quite been working out the way that I would like them. I shattered someone's heart, though they seem to be getting on fine, in fact, by some of the comments I've read on his myspace I think he's got a girl who is after him so I'm happy for him that he'll be able to have so happiness, if he decides to even go that way... But that's also not to say that my heart hasn't also been bruised as of lately. It's bruised pretty badly for more reasons than one, but I'm working on that...
Why is it though that I have formed these attachments to guys that I will never be able to have in my life?? I wasn't even really looking for anyone new when I started noticing these feelings. But even if I wanted to actively pursue any of them, I couldn't... Oh well, guess I'm better off single. Seems like all I do is destroy people anyway.
Well, it's not true that I don't really have a lot to say, it's just that what I would really like to talk about I'm kind of not allowed to, even now. And it's driving me crazy. Only one other person knows anything about the situation and I don't know if she's at work right now or at home so I figured that I would just call her after tutoring was over to talk to her about it instead of getting myself into more trouble by saying things in here when I probably shouldn't. Things just haven't quite been working out the way that I would like them. I shattered someone's heart, though they seem to be getting on fine, in fact, by some of the comments I've read on his myspace I think he's got a girl who is after him so I'm happy for him that he'll be able to have so happiness, if he decides to even go that way... But that's also not to say that my heart hasn't also been bruised as of lately. It's bruised pretty badly for more reasons than one, but I'm working on that...
Why is it though that I have formed these attachments to guys that I will never be able to have in my life?? I wasn't even really looking for anyone new when I started noticing these feelings. But even if I wanted to actively pursue any of them, I couldn't... Oh well, guess I'm better off single. Seems like all I do is destroy people anyway.