ridiculous

[toxicfumes]

So the doctors still can't figure out why I've been extremely sick for the past 2 and a half months, so they've decided to guess YET again with the notion of going overboard. I went on an antiobiotic over a month ago, and nothing. Then I went back and they put me on a much more potent antibiotic that should have cleared whatever it was in 2 days.. but no result. Today they decided to take another approach and deviate from finding a cure for my "sinus infection." Now it is possibly some germ and that's why my throat and lungs are swollen and full of mucus, and need to be opened up so I can breath correctly and get rid of that phlegm. Their expertise guess is to treat me for asthma in order to "open up my lungs." So 4 times a day, for 10 minutes each time, I need to sign down with an oxygen mask (and that irrating loud machine) and breathe some medicated oxygen. On top of these 10 minute sessions, they gave me an inhaler. I need to use it in the morning, and at night. AND on top of that, I need to take 2 antibiotics for this so called germ every day. The medications are loaded with steroids, and I can't even imagine how bad that is for me. Kelly's tub of lard cat has asthma and takes steroids. Everytime I use these things I get dizzy and extremely tired, and almost black out. It's pretty horrible. And my mood changes completely. Although I am stressed, I feel 10000 times more stressed. And completely depressed. After using the damn oxygen mask, I passed out for 3 hours, and woke up feeling extremely lethargic and depressed. I then proceeded to a 30 minute crying session for no apparent reason. And I am rambling because I guess this is what these stupid medications are doing to me and I think I will refuse to continue taking them. Because then I will need a few hundred doses of Prozac.

Here's to a long night of homework. Momma keeps telling me to just stay home and relax tomorrow but I'm going to veer to the responsible side and go to school.

okaaaay.