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Well, I've been thinking about the people I left in Maine....The important ones, of course. I think me moving to Florida FINALLY hit me. Sometimes I wish I never look back....I miss my lil sister a lot.. =( My mom got apartments in Tampa, the ones she was waiting on for some time now....And the next high school im going to is a lot bigger then the last two I was at...
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever in "that" persons head after I was gone...or anything, I wonder if that person ever has thought about me or still does. I hate relationships, and never want to be in one again. But if I am, then I want it to be the right person, not some fucked up kid.
I hate thinking.....Thinking is a pain in the ass. Especially bout the past. Most of it I wish never happened. But I learned to let things go and move on, but there's always a part of me that's still hurt, or gone. And yeah, I've fuked with a lot of peoples feelings and emotions, but it obviously proves how weak I am as a person...And shows that I only think about myself, but Im not the only one. No one can point all fingers at me.
Well, anyways....Today I got a couple outfits, and it was kinda a lot, to my mom. And I felt bad because she didn't think she was going to spend that much money on me and she needs to get a bed for the new apartment and furniture and all that, so yeah. Blah I don't know. I really don't want to start over at a new school. And me being all shy doesn't help either. ERGH. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Im never going to find anyooonnnee. NEVER. Maybe that's a good thing. Guys ruin everything, it seems like a lot of gurls are dependent on guys, and it's just rediculous if you think about it. Wtfe