Dear Jordan
I just needed to get this off my chest.... Here's to draft 1.
"Jordan,
It’s been long enough, and I’ve given enough thought into it that I finally have to confront you. We have been friends for so long. So long that it’s often hard to imagine how we’ve made it this long. The downside to that statement is that we really haven’t, have we? After the setback with the Moriah incident, I don’t think we ever recovered from that. I forgave you completely, but I could never forget it. It was one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. It really was an eye opener for me. I looked at our friendship, and I really saw it as the only relationship with someone that I thought I was completely safe in. You woke me up to reality. And I tried to get over it, I really did, but I forgave you on the grounds that you really wanted forgiveness.
You haven’t shown me much proof since then. I was a backburner friend to you, wasn’t I? When Toni was too busy, or Emily was doing something, and you were bored… you would call me up all friendly like and ask me to hang. I’ve known this for a long time, but I ignored it because I really did idealize our friendship. Hell, in many ways, I even idealized you.
It’s been a while since we last talked. My life is different now, if you even care to know. I work graveyard at 7-11, get off work, go to sleep. Wake up, do some writing, drinking, a little bit of WoW. Same thing every week. I try to keep in touch with those who genuinely care… have you noticed, I haven’t called you? Probably not… well, you are incredibly busy with your own life, I can only assume. Far too busy to check up on your best friend.
It was in this time, that I assume you were far too busy to check up on me, that I got to thinking. Didn’t I forgive you for the Moriah incident on the grounds that it wouldn’t happen again? Funny enough, the Emily situation could be compared in more ways than I would even like to admit. First and foremost, I loved Emily like a sister. She really was one of the best friends I ever knew. I still love her, but sometimes, it’s just too late to apologize. In hindsight, I think she’ll be okay anyhow. But this letter isn’t about Emily, it’s about you and I. So, I do have to consider this, and admit that I would be a liar and someone who can’t keep her word, if I can’t even live by my own promise.
Don’t worry, though, no hard feelings. =) It was good when it was good, bad when it was bad, but the bad has been a learning experience for me. The entire friendship was, actually, and I have to thank you for making my quality of life better at one point. Thanks for being everything I could ask for in a friend, at least, when you took the time to be one. Good luck with everything that life throws at you."
"Jordan,
It’s been long enough, and I’ve given enough thought into it that I finally have to confront you. We have been friends for so long. So long that it’s often hard to imagine how we’ve made it this long. The downside to that statement is that we really haven’t, have we? After the setback with the Moriah incident, I don’t think we ever recovered from that. I forgave you completely, but I could never forget it. It was one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. It really was an eye opener for me. I looked at our friendship, and I really saw it as the only relationship with someone that I thought I was completely safe in. You woke me up to reality. And I tried to get over it, I really did, but I forgave you on the grounds that you really wanted forgiveness.
You haven’t shown me much proof since then. I was a backburner friend to you, wasn’t I? When Toni was too busy, or Emily was doing something, and you were bored… you would call me up all friendly like and ask me to hang. I’ve known this for a long time, but I ignored it because I really did idealize our friendship. Hell, in many ways, I even idealized you.
It’s been a while since we last talked. My life is different now, if you even care to know. I work graveyard at 7-11, get off work, go to sleep. Wake up, do some writing, drinking, a little bit of WoW. Same thing every week. I try to keep in touch with those who genuinely care… have you noticed, I haven’t called you? Probably not… well, you are incredibly busy with your own life, I can only assume. Far too busy to check up on your best friend.
It was in this time, that I assume you were far too busy to check up on me, that I got to thinking. Didn’t I forgive you for the Moriah incident on the grounds that it wouldn’t happen again? Funny enough, the Emily situation could be compared in more ways than I would even like to admit. First and foremost, I loved Emily like a sister. She really was one of the best friends I ever knew. I still love her, but sometimes, it’s just too late to apologize. In hindsight, I think she’ll be okay anyhow. But this letter isn’t about Emily, it’s about you and I. So, I do have to consider this, and admit that I would be a liar and someone who can’t keep her word, if I can’t even live by my own promise.
Don’t worry, though, no hard feelings. =) It was good when it was good, bad when it was bad, but the bad has been a learning experience for me. The entire friendship was, actually, and I have to thank you for making my quality of life better at one point. Thanks for being everything I could ask for in a friend, at least, when you took the time to be one. Good luck with everything that life throws at you."