Really Pissy Right Now
Grrrr, sometimes Justin makes me mad. Everything is just pissing me off at the moment. Uh, I went through all of his old live journal entries, the ones before me, and all of the 'lovey dovey' stuff that he told his past boyfriends were the EXACT same things that he said about me. Huh, kinda weird isn't it. Even though it's over, it still pisses me off to know that he might have not actually cared as much as he said. Uh, and then he texted me today. It just seems that he wants to keep making me feel bad about what I did. I've apologized a thousand times, I don't know what else he wants. The guilt trip isn't working anymore. Over it!! Uh, it sucks!! Being friends is sooo hard because when I try to tell him how I feel it's like he just wants to see if he can change my feelings. Grrrrr. I told him that I would feel awkward at his party and he got mad. Uh, yeah I would feel awkward...duh. Around his friends that probably most likely HATE me! Not cool. Jeeez, it's all sooooo crappy. But whatever, I'll be fine. And the icing on the cake is even freakin' better. Josh told me today that Tim got hired at the movie theater. How freakin' fun?? Huh? My job is just gonna rock!! Well whatever, I guess I'll go now. I'm done with being pissed...for now.
Dustin
Dustin