BULL SHIT.
i'm not really sure what i am doing anymore?
& i dont think i will ever know.
i know i've lost myself within the years
& i wanna work on gettin that back.
but its also hard when everyone around you is holding you back.
how and i suppose to be something if im not aloud to speak my voice.
not allowed to go out with my friends
not allowed to listen to my own music
i dont even have the privacy, it really is like living at home
minus the abuse and the 9 oclock curfew.
now its the same thing but i pay rent?
i dont think it should be like this
& i know you cant trust me, yes i caused it but
i never did you dirty & if you really were over it
than i dont think we would be were we are.
you have always know guys have been my friends more than girls.
YOU KNEW THIS BEFORE WE STARTED TO DATE.
& now its a problem, your pushin away people in my life that
sorry i have know way longer than you. & they have deff help me out
like you have.
i dont think its fair.
i never asked you to stop talkin to your friends
i never hold you back from doing whatevere it is you want.
but when i ask it turns into a fight
its fuckin bullshit to feel like this
& then i try to talk to you & you dont
even care.
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I NEED
FRIENDS FOR. THE ONE WHO IS SUPPOSED TO LISTEN
DOESNT EVEN CARE TO.
sorry i need to talk to someone.
cuz my mind is a weapon and the weapon always wins.
& i dont think i will ever know.
i know i've lost myself within the years
& i wanna work on gettin that back.
but its also hard when everyone around you is holding you back.
how and i suppose to be something if im not aloud to speak my voice.
not allowed to go out with my friends
not allowed to listen to my own music
i dont even have the privacy, it really is like living at home
minus the abuse and the 9 oclock curfew.
now its the same thing but i pay rent?
i dont think it should be like this
& i know you cant trust me, yes i caused it but
i never did you dirty & if you really were over it
than i dont think we would be were we are.
you have always know guys have been my friends more than girls.
YOU KNEW THIS BEFORE WE STARTED TO DATE.
& now its a problem, your pushin away people in my life that
sorry i have know way longer than you. & they have deff help me out
like you have.
i dont think its fair.
i never asked you to stop talkin to your friends
i never hold you back from doing whatevere it is you want.
but when i ask it turns into a fight
its fuckin bullshit to feel like this
& then i try to talk to you & you dont
even care.
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I NEED
FRIENDS FOR. THE ONE WHO IS SUPPOSED TO LISTEN
DOESNT EVEN CARE TO.
sorry i need to talk to someone.
cuz my mind is a weapon and the weapon always wins.