nothing seems right anymore;

[toxic_pink_milk]

i'm livin a life
i wish
i really never
had to begin with.
everyone i have ever loved.
or care for are slowly being pushed
out of my life or are all ready to far
gone.
i get i have created this for myself.
but i just dont get why it had to be this way.
the drugs. the boys. the girls. the lies.
i just dont get how i got myself here.

again.