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theres so much shit going on right now I dont even know what to say Im so lost theres so much shit going on right now that I cant even fucking control and it drives me crazy, dont let this fucking facade of me being okay fool you cause im not everything is so fucked up right now, people I care about so much Im just hurting deffinatly unintentionally but its hurting me so much too and I dont think they realize it and with this fucking bull shit triangle situation I could lose two people I care about so much and Im fucking misrable I cant even explain and im gonna be a fucking junior next year and I havent even had a steady friendship with a girl cause girls are hard to deal with and I fuckin found Rachel and we both felt the same way about alot of shit even though we had our ups and downs I dont even fuckin have anymore and the people I still do have are so far even though they are right here Im just rambling and I dont expect any of you to understand this Im just writing it for my self gratification, gratification for what I dont fuckin know, im done