Pre-Last Entry

[toxic_hannible]

Hello there, This will be the "before-last" entry. My last entry will be the next one. I'm just updating to I guess inform you about what I plan to do and to tell you about what has been happening in my life. Anyway, this will be "not such a short entry but shorter than usual entry" (love the proper English) with some pictures. Here goes:

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hey

[han423]

I'm glad that you've lost weight and accomplished everything else that you wanted.

I like the photos of the rollercoasters. I wanted to take some photos like that too, but I am very paranoid and I'd never risk my baby (my camera) like that..

Anywho, sorry about the joint journal not happening. You're right, I don't have any enthusiasm or "mojo" to make it. Why? because our relationship hasn't really been the same again and I don't feel the same way about us. Our *v* bond has deteriorated... I'm sure that it's not news to you, you mustve felt the difference too.
I'm not extremely excited to go on our adventures any longer because you hurt my feelings and never apologize or talk about it.
It's difficult to approach you and start a talk myself because you get angry/stubborn. I feel that your pride and anger blinds you and that you wouldn't even listen to me, so it's very frightening for me to even think of talking to you about certain stuff.
I am very non-confrontational and keep things to myself just to avoid arguements. I don't really know where I'm getting with this..
I still care very much about you in spite of everything. If you ever need anything or want to talk and hang out.. you know the number and where I live.
Take care dude.. "peace-keeper" Jo is going bike riding now.

Re: hey

[toxic_hannible]

How have I hurt your ULTRA sensitive feelings now? Everything I say to you "hurts" you now? You have basically turned into the old me now . . . . . I don't understand how I hurt you recently. Everytime I go out with you, you frustrate me. Something always annoys you, whether its this or that or your pissed at this or that . . . you just ruin things for yourself and for me. Always looking pissed, sometimes rude, easily offended . . . BAH! You have to relax . . .

I don't know why you keep bringing up the "arrogancy and pride" argument over and over . . . you NEVER tell me when I hurt you so i can't say sorry or apologize for what I have done. You just swallow everything up. I'm sorry but I'm not good at swallowing my feelings and I always say when I'm hurt or complain which is why you take me to be soo "arrogant" and "prideful."

Sometimes arguing is a good thing . . when you say something "confrontational" to me, It may look like I'm screaming but its the way I am. I'm not actually getting angry or anything . . . its the tone of my voice. You should stop trying to analyze my tone of voices and the way I think since it seems you have a wrong interpretation . . I'm not as simple to understand as you think.

I'm sorry that you don't have the strength the stand yourself against me when I say something hurtful (which by the way I don't know what you are talking about, which is my point about you not saying anything). If you hve something you want to say to me that bothers you, you tell me and don't keep it inside. Confront me, and get over the whole me being arrogant and prideful thing, thats just another excuse for you not to do it. IF you just told me what the hell was wrong then maybe it would solve our friendship problems.